Dependant of people or resources

Hello, I post this two threads also if you want to know more about me:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/anxie...528-hello.html
And
http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...gh-nights.html

When I don't feel good, I become rapidly impulsive and dependant of resources and other people in my life because I need that.

I just wanted to share about that.

It is a diagnostic that I received also.

Hello,

I entered the crisis center this afternoon.
I met an intervenent and I explained my whole situation.

I like him because he respects my pace and he told me not to put pressure on myself to be able to sleep at the crisis center .

We made a plan together for tonight that I stay active all evening and I do a relaxation technique before sleep and chat with others here on PC or internet. I will have access to internet at crisis center.

Anyway, I 'll do my best during this stay to try to move forward, but I do not put pressure on me to succeed.

I have a plan for my first night at the crisis center .

On Tuesday, the crisis center will contact my other intervenents to work in teams for me to wait in psychiatry and everything and how to treat me.

My plan is that I will be at my friend's house for dinner and a movie in the evening. Then I take a bus ride and then I go to the crisis center to relax me , go on the internet to prepare myself to try to sleep there.

Have a nice day.

perseverance11

Hello,

I feel my anxiety raising because it is dark and solitude a bit.

Hello,

I managed to sleep in crisis center around 3:30 am . The medication helped me being more sleepy.
I woke up at 11am.
I met the interveners and I felt pressurized in the sense that they obliged me almost to sleep there every night, but IO must go at my own pace go at my own pace and it is what it was agreed in yesterday meeting that I slept there either yesterday or today, so it was yesterday. Tonight I will sleep at my friend's house.

I also feel pressure because they want me to be there often to evaluate me and know me, but I have activities and I do not want to feel trapped either. Yes, I spend time there, but I want freedom too.

The reasons why I do not want to sleep here today are that firstly , I want to go at my own pace because otherwise it makes me more anxious and it lowers the moral and me too, I got up late this morning , so I can not sleep at the agreed time over there because I will not be tired.

I called my counselor of the archipel d'entraîde to tell him this and if he can support me and whathe thinks.

I'll be at Mass this evening.

Otherwise, what do you think and do you have any advice for me in this situation knowing my pace and everything?

Thank you and have a nice day.

perseverance11

I asked at crisis center if I try to sleep there tonight and it doesn't work, if I could return to my friend's house.

I asked, but the answer I received maqde me almost angry.
If it does not work at the crisis center, I should stay there they said.

I will not spend sleepless nights every time.
And if I go to the hospital, they will take me to the nearest hospital, but I want to go to the institute.

This is not in 7 days that all my problems will be resolved.
I can try, but there are conditions that I can get myself to the hospital if I do not sleep. If they are not able to accept that, I'll cancel my stay at the crisis center.

It is discouraging me. I want sincerely to receive help and I need HELP, but they don't6 do it in the best way for me. I am desperate.

I just take an agreement with them that if I am not able to sleep at crisis center tommorow, I will go to the hospital that I want to go. It will probably go that way because my mental health illness is too hard to manage.

But I fear they will not respect my agreement, so maybe I should go to the hospital tonight.

I don't know whatto do and I am discouraged because mental health system is too rough for me, so maybe I will leave that system and stay in a prayer life and do some volountary and help others, but I always have this anxiety that I need the mental health system.

I am really desperate to have to face this system.

It doesn't work really well in the crisis center, so I left it and I should maybe go to the hospital, but alone, it is too tough for me to go there, because I fear doctor will destroy me because I refused services this winter.

I called crisis center and I will try to sleep there tonight, but if it doesn't work, I will go to the hospital.

I can't refuse this help because I need it.

Hello,

I had an interview at crisis center tonight and after some thought, I ended my stay there because they asked me to sleep there every night from tonight and it was too much for me. Also, I had difficulty adjusting to the crisis centerbecause of my adjustment disorder because it is a new place . They gave me the name of an organization that provides an external program of psychoeducation . This is the renaissance center growth and they also told me to call clsc to see what resources might help me waiting to see a psychiatrist at the Institute for an interview. Because it is still difficult regularly and I need help.

There is a person who would be willing to accompany me to the hospital tonight at 10pm or tomorrow or this week .
I could have an interview maybe in 24 to 48 hours after seeing an emergency doctor.

What do you advise me to do?

Go to the hospital for a entreuve soon with a psychiatrist? If yes , when to go ?

Trying to find other resources that could help me while waiting for the interview with a psychiatrist ; knowing that it will take longer to access the ressources and that only a psychiatrist can refer ?

Or if you have other suggestions?

Thank you and have a good evening.

perseverance11

I will go to the hospital tonight with one of my friends. I will keep you updated.

Hello,

I just arrived from the hospital.

I met with the social worker and psychiatrist .

Here are the results :

First, the psychiatrist referred me to a partial programm out which lasts 6 to 8 weeks . The weeks are not fully charged ; there are some holes in the schedule.
In this treatment center , which is affiliated with the Institute, there is an interdisciplinary team of psychiatrists, psychologists , nurses, egotherapeutes , social workers, etc. .

There are group meetings and individual meetings .

If it brings fruit, it will be perfect , but otherwise they can refer me elsewhere or in a program wich lasts 2 to 3 years.

Then , since I will move away in June 1 my CLSC file be transferred to downtown clsc to have a social worker or an specialist educator .

Also , the psychiatrist has made a request for me to have a family doctor in the network clinics .
Tomorrow I will call to see if they have received my application and if so, I'll go to without appointment for a general health review and discuss perhaps the medication, although there are more psychiatrists of the treatment center who have this role (medication ) .

I should start the programm within 1 week maximum .
Meanwhile I have an appointment with my archipel d'entraide counselor and my psychotherapist Wednesday and Thursday and if it does not go well in the evening I will callcrisis center or suicide prevention center .

So there is a whole plan that is organized to help me and I'll go one day at a time.
My friend will work with my counselor to help me too.

If you have any questions, do not hesitate .

Thank you and have a good day.

perseverance11

I slept at 3am last night because of my suicidal thoughts.

I will start out patient programm tommorow at 10 am.

In the moment, I have some flash of suicidal thoughts, but not a lot of anxiety.

Here is where I will start an outpatient programm. http://www.institutsmq....html

Hello, I missed my first interview today, because I slept only at 4am and I was too tired this mornig. I will start my outpatient programm tommorow at 10am.

Hello,

I had a first interview today for my outpatient programm and thehy will call me back on the next few days.

The wait will be really hard to do I think.

There is always psychiatrist emergency if it gets worse.

I will have an interview with a psychotgherapist in the next few days to start my programm.

Thanks and have a nice day.

perseverance11

The wait until my outpatient program beginning is really hard to manage.

I have some suicidal thoughts and some self harm thoughts.

I just arrived from a walk to distract me.