[barbarabp]

Dear friends,
I found PC really comfortable, safe and friendly so I think I can trust you.
I am 15 and really lonely. My mind is killing me. I have crazy nightmares, I feel lonely and friendless all the time. I've been bullied, my family is a mess, I used to cut myself and other things.
I think it all started when I was a child, my parents divorced because my father was cheating on my mother and I have terrible memories about it.
I've always been quiet but a few years ago I really changed, and when I look back I really regret it.
Well, I used to cut and burn myself very often because I felt so lonely, so friendless, helpless. I haven't cut myself in three months but I still feel miserable.
My self esteem is low and I am overweight, silly and stupid. I have some iinternet friends but I feel like they don't care about me.
I feel like I can't trust anyone. I find myself very insecure, even more now that everyone hates me at school.
Anyway, I am devastated and miserable.
I hope I find friends here.
Love always,
Barbara

[TerryL]

Hi barbarabp--welcome to PC I am very sorry you are feeling so sad. I know how hard and stressful school can be at your age. I would say just concentrate on taking care of yourself, try to eat healthy and just try to be nice to people. I'm sure many in your school feel as you do and would love a friend or a kind gesture. As for your parents, I hope you can tell them how you feel somehow. Sometimes they can be so caught up in their own problems they don't see what is really going on with their children. or if you can't talk to them, maybe talk with your school counselor?

btw, I know how overwhelming and confusing this website can be initially with all its forums and subforums. You might get more feedback if you post in the main Depression forum. If you want to, you can ask a moderator to move this post of yours there. To reach a moderator just click on the white triangle with the black line inside it to the left of your message and make your request. Anyways--I hope you can find some comfort here on PC. Wishing you all the best.