[Berries]

i am so scared of people. But i don't want to be alone for the rest of my life.

[cantstopcrying]

[turquoisesea]

I understand

[poet682006]

Originally Posted by Berries

i am so scared of people. But i don't want to be alone for the rest of my life.

I feel you. I go through the same

[justfloating]

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I'm exactly the same way. Wish I knew what to do about it, but at least we're not alone in our aloneness, right?

[Fuzzybear]

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[Lifsuks]

Originally Posted by Berries

i am so scared of people. But i don't want to be alone for the rest of my life.

Hi Berries,
(I like that name!)
I feel the same way too, about not wanting to be alone for the rest of my life. It's not that I'm scared of people, it's that I don't like being judged. At work I can talk and laugh with my co-workers but all the while, in the back of my mind, I'm thinking stuff like, what do they really think of me; they think I'm stupid or ugly or whatever; etc. etc. etc. Even when we laugh or the mood is good in the office, I am thinking, while I'm laughing with the rest, "they are just faking it, nobody is really happy" etc. etc. I avoid people because it's just easier to deal with. No judgmental eyes! I hate walking down the street and looking at people coming towards me 'cuz I can see their eyes, they are judging me, and thinking bad thoughts of me. Stupid? yes, but can't help it. Yet, I seek out company from friends, but when we are together, all I want to do is leave. Go figure. See, just easier to be alone!

[Sadsunflower]

Originally Posted by Berries

i am so scared of people. But i don't want to be alone for the rest of my life.

I don't blame you. People can be weird. Just when you think you know them, u find out u don't. There's somebody for you though. Don't give up

[idontknow13]

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[Berries]

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Sorry Lifsuks, that sounds rough!!!

Hang in there

[Lifsuks]

Originally Posted by Berries

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Sorry Lifsuks, that sounds rough!!!

Hang in there

Thanks Berries,
My T. says I'm a negative person and he is right! I guess I just see the worse and expect the worse in people..you know, that cup half empty thing? I hope you overcome your alone-ness and find lots of friends. But you will always have us at PC!!
Take care and get out there and socialize (no, not me-I'm perfectly fine sitting here at the computer next to my 4-legged friend, Kitty! She's enuf company for me for now!).

[In_The_Darkness]

HUGS! OXO

[trevorzero]

I hope you'll find some satisfying volunteer work to do pretty soon. You can't afford to give up on the things that are so very important like this.

[turquoisesea]

How're you doing today Berries?

[Berries]

Thank you for asking turq. I am ok. My meds are finally starting to work!! I am going on a trip this weekend to visit my only and best friend. then i am going to apply to a mentoring program when i get back home.
I'm very nervous about it. It is a lengthy process that involves asking people to write letters of recomendation and an in-home interview. I am also nervous about the trip, which involves a plane ride and a hotel room. Scary.

[xxMSFxx]

Berries & Lifsuks
i know what u guys are goin threw. i feel the same way down to the very last word.

[Lifsuks]

Originally Posted by xxMSFxx

Berries & Lifsuks
i know what u guys are goin threw. i feel the same way down to the very last word.

Hi MSF,
Thanks. I think justfloating said it all--"we're not alone in our aloneness".
When I'm here on this site, I don't feel so alone. All of you I can talk to and you understand and you don't judge.
Berries, I hope being w/ your best friend will give you someone to talk to and not feel so alone. Good luck on your trip.
Take care all of you!