Don't think I can do it......

I don't think I can do it!! A dear friend of mine says I "CAN" get through this. I know he knows how hard it can be because he suffers from depression as well. I have been ok for years, and all of a sudden starting going down. I don't know if it was one thing that triggered it or not. Next thing you know, I don't want to get out of bed, not going to the gym like I use to. I started taking pills all the time and even done self injury. My friend did go with me to a psycharist. That was hard enough alone doing that. He gave me some new meds which I have been taking since tues. He told me to take them in the morning so I have been. They make me so tired by 8 pM. I feel great for a while, and then at night and hit a low again. I have an appt with a T to talk to someone, but I dno't know if I can do it. I don't feel like I am worth it. I feel like I just want to run away and hide from everyone that way no one has to worry and whatever. This guy who is been there to help me. I feel bad. I turn to him all the time and I can't do that. I feel like a burden and that I"m being needy. SHouldn't I be able to do this on my own? Maybe I'm not meant to be helped? My sister and her girls are coming up today and it is taking everything that I have to put on a happy face and act like nothing is wrong when all I want to do is sit and cry and do nothing. I feel like there is no light at the end of the tunnel.

(((((scotslandskye)))))

YOU CAN DO THIS!!

So many of us have been emotionally where you are today and yesterday. You are fortunate to have a "friend" who even considered going with you to the doc. I have three grown children who would never consider doing so. One pretty much blames me for being mentally ill. One is afraid of it. The three just ignores it.

YOU CAN DO THIS!!!

I said not long ago that I did some wordsmithing with a phrase Dr. Phil uses in the opening of his show...yes, once in a while I do watch his show...he says, "we can do this". I change the words into "I can do this!" and try to say this each morning.

There are days I hate even the thought of "doing it again today"...smiling and acting...but it does help me to get through the day, especially days when I have to say it several times throughout the day.

YOU CAN DO THIS!!!

Give the new meds 4 to 6 weeks to work and for any side effects, like getting sleepy, to wear off. I started on new meds about 2 months ago, like you I hit a major depressive episode AGAIN. It always take me 4 - 6 weeks for the meds to take their full effect and for the worst of the side effects to pass. You can do it, just hang on and take it one day at a time.

There's no law that says you have to walk around being happy for everyone else. If you feel sad or like crying, go ahead. If you had diabetes you wouldn't feel you had to pretend you didn't have it, would you? We should all stop beating our selves up because we have depression, it's not our fault. We certainly would get rid of it if we could, right?

Hello ((((((scotlandskye))))) I believe that depression is telling you that you can't do this. YOU CAN DO IT - You can beat your depression. I know that it is a hard. But it can be done.

Thanks everyone! Still not feeling like I can do this! Had a bad night last night but hoping today will get better!
Bigcasper I would go with you in a heartbeat and I’m sorry that your kids don’t understand and aren’t supportive that doesn’t help at all! I like the “I can do this” I have started telling myself that, but for somereason the “you can’t do this” is winning.
Pomegrante…4-6 weeks seem like a long time when your like this, but I know that is what it can take for the meds to take their full effect. It is frustrating though cause you think you should start to feel better,but instead you take a dive downward. The only time I really have to put on an act is at work. I work in the hotel business so at work I have to be that upbeat person. I can’t really show how I really feel there.
Thanks again everyone!

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It's hard to ignore the lies our depression tells us. Hang in there. Sending lots of hugs.