[kebsfroggy]

I QUIT

I'm tired of fighting this never ending battle.

I hurt. Walking, standing, yard work, painting walls, washing dishes, doing laundry, carrying heavy groceries, it's always the same.

Fighting through the cluttered/filthy house, mowing a yard over grown with weeds. Trying to "down-size" our possessions so we can move to a place we can afford.

I need to end this circle, over and over and over but it never ends.

If I do nothing then nothing gets done. I hate this. I'm tired, I hope Tommie never comes. The I'll never again have to force myself to try.

Today we received a bill for Matt's dad's home dialysis supplies. One month = $11,000. Where is the world am I going to come up with that kind of money.

Oh well, tomorrow is another day, right.

[depressedalaskan]

kebsfroggy

[Naturefreak]

Wouldn't it be nice if I painted your walls , freak did your
yard work , Rohag washed the dishes , Adhd did your laundry , and Alaskan carried your heavy groceries. And
you could sit and relax for a change. I mean what are
friends for . If I won that $10 million dollars I had mentioned before , I would fly us all to your place and
we would spend a week there doing all your chores.
You deserve a break . What do you think guys ?
I hate to have voted you in , but I'm sure you'd all agree.
Kebs Sorry but I'm dreaming again . I can't afford
such a plan . But I will send you my love and Hugs.

[depressedalaskan]

Originally Posted by Babysteps09

Wouldn't it be nice if I painted your walls , freak did your
yard work , Rohag washed the dishes , Adhd did your laundry , and Alaskan carried your heavy groceries. And
you could sit and relax for a change. I mean what are
friends for . If I won that $10 million dollars I had mentioned before , I would fly us all to your place and
we would spend a week there doing all your chores.
You deserve a break . What do you think guys ?
I hate to have voted you in , but I'm sure you'd all agree.
Kebs Sorry but I'm dreaming again . I can't afford
such a plan . But I will send you my love and Hugs.

I'm in

((((kebs))))))))))))) so sorry you are having a hard time . I know life can be so hard at times.
Does matts Dad have ins,? Have you submitted the bill back to them? can you call the ins company if there is one? WHat about medicare or medacaid?
And could the dialysis provide you with help
I had this issue with my moms oxygen company in the end it was solved
(kebs)))))))))))))) tc of you my friend

[Rohag]

I'm in. I work at my own pace, though...the "speed of Rohag" I call it...

Kebsfroggy, your situation is overwhelming. I'd be so overcome, I wouldn't have the spirit even to voice "I quit." If Babysteps doesn't win the lottery, and even if she does, please accept a few gentle hugs from this frustrated cyber-friend who doesn't know how to help you.

[lonelyperson92]

Originally Posted by kebsfroggy

I QUIT

I'm tired of fighting this never ending battle.

I hurt. Walking, standing, yard work, painting walls, washing dishes, doing laundry, carrying heavy groceries, it's always the same.

Fighting through the cluttered/filthy house, mowing a yard over grown with weeds. Trying to "down-size" our possessions so we can move to a place we can afford.

I need to end this circle, over and over and over but it never ends.

If I do nothing then nothing gets done. I hate this. I'm tired, I hope Tommie never comes. The I'll never again have to force myself to try.

Today we received a bill for Matt's dad's home dialysis supplies. One month = $11,000. Where is the world am I going to come up with that kind of money.

Oh well, tomorrow is another day, right.

Don't stop fighting kebsfroggy !!! I had a long cycle of sleeping too much (like 10 to 11 hours a day) but I manage some how to break my sleeping habit by repeating myself that :"Yes I can, Yes I can !!!" (a bit like Yes We Can). I know that my struggle compare nothing to yours but I hope it would make you feel better... in someways...

Don't quit your battle !!!

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((((( froggy )))))))))))))))))

[nowheretorun]

(((Kebs)))) dont quit, you cant quit..... we need you and your morsels of wisdom... you will get thru this again.... is anyone helping you at all with all this paperwork? sending you love and caring.... i hope your family appreciates all you do for them

[pegasus]

Sending hugs ((((((( Kebs )))))))

Leave the yard work, hoovering for a bit, nobody will die because you didn't do it. The grass won't wave a flag and say hey you didn't cut me today! Will the carpet moan if it's left a little longer? Go pamper yourself in some way - that's an order! Just leave it, look after you even if it is for just one day.

[Berries]

If Babysteps wins that $10,000,000, I'll help you organize your stuff and help you haul off what you need to get rid of and pack up what you want to take with you when you move.

[*freak*]

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, don't quit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Originally Posted by Babysteps09

Wouldn't it be nice if I painted your walls , freak did your
yard work , Rohag washed the dishes , Adhd did your laundry , and Alaskan carried your heavy groceries. And
you could sit and relax for a change. I mean what are
friends for . If I won that $10 million dollars I had mentioned before , I would fly us all to your place and
we would spend a week there doing all your chores.
You deserve a break . What do you think guys ?

I'd do it in an eye blink...
Kebs, I told you I'd be glad to help you if I could, and I meant it... If only we didn't live 6 time zones away from each other...
Hang in there

[Naturefreak]

((Kebs)))
I hope you are doing better today .
You are NOT a quitter . You just can't do as much as you could
when you were younger. Try not to over do it.
Hugs

[idontknow13]

(((((Kebsfroggy)))))

[ADHD1956]

Originally Posted by Babysteps09

Wouldn't it be nice if I painted your walls , freak did your
yard work , Rohag washed the dishes , Adhd did your laundry , and Alaskan carried your heavy groceries. And
you could sit and relax for a change. I mean what are
friends for . If I won that $10 million dollars I had mentioned before , I would fly us all to your place and
we would spend a week there doing all your chores.
You deserve a break . What do you think guys ?
I hate to have voted you in , but I'm sure you'd all agree.
Kebs Sorry but I'm dreaming again . I can't afford
such a plan . But I will send you my love and Hugs.

I am in too!!! KebsFroggy

[Tumnus]

((((((Kebs)))))

I kinda suck at everything you need help with, but I'm big into foot rubs, back rubs, ice cream runs, brownie baking, comfort giving. I'd love to fly out and help that way.

[Sabrina]

I am really sorry that you are struggling so much. Sending you warm and soothing thoughts.

[Rohag]

Another day and its challenges arrives. May those challenges flow around you and not over you, dear Frog of Great Heart and many trials.

[Pomegranate]

I'm right here with you Kebs. I hurt physically, mentally, emotionally. Times like this I just keep going to see this thing called "life" through to the end - keep my commitment to my hubby and doggies.

[kebsfroggy]

Thank you all for your kind words and hugs.

Worked all yesterday try to get something finished, just once to get something completed. HA!

Found out this morning, tomorrow I'm receiving another 37 cartons of dialysis solutions. On top of what I now have, there will be no room left for my quilting, sewing, drawing, crafting stuff.

Might as well throw that part of my life away too. Oh well, how does that saying go, "We plan, God Laughs". I just wish he wouldn't laugh so loud.

You all say I can't give up and some small part of me tries to agree. But I'm getting too tired to even care. The "to do" list keeps growing as my energy level wanes.

Each night I take muscle relaxants, codeine, morphine, seroguel, and Valium to sleep. Each sits in it's own little pill container before me. Sometimes I just sit and stare wondering what a life without waking would be like.

Thank you all again

kebs

[Naturefreak]

Originally Posted by kebsfroggy

You all say I can't give up and some small part of me tries to agree.
kebs

It may be a small part , just like your small froggy brain , lol.
But at least you have that , hold on to it Kebs .
We are here for you
Hugs

[Berries]

(((((((((((kebsfroggy)))))))))))

You can't quit now, froggy! You got to stick around to find out what happens next. Everything always changes!!!

Originally Posted by kebsfroggy

Thank you all for your kind words and hugs.

Worked all yesterday try to get something finished, just once to get something completed. HA!

Found out this morning, tomorrow I'm receiving another 37 cartons of dialysis solutions. On top of what I now have, there will be no room left for my quilting, sewing, drawing, crafting stuff.

Might as well throw that part of my life away too. Oh well, how does that saying go, "We plan, God Laughs". I just wish he wouldn't laugh so loud.

You all say I can't give up and some small part of me tries to agree. But I'm getting too tired to even care. The "to do" list keeps growing as my energy level wanes.

Each night I take muscle relaxants, codeine, morphine, seroguel, and Valium to sleep. Each sits in it's own little pill container before me. Sometimes I just sit and stare wondering what a life without waking would be like.

Thank you all again

kebs

((((((kebs))))))))))))))) it would be very sad for all of us here as we all love you.
I know things get hard and getting overwhelmed with paperwork and real life well sometimes its just not easy.
At some point you have to take time for you as your health depends on it.
If your tired rest if you can . Trust from someone who knows ..please know i care about and am sending you a hug and love and am listening and most of all i care. my friend

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Kebsfroggy

...there will be no room left for my quilting, sewing, drawing, crafting stuff.
Might as well throw that part of my life away too. ...

Oh, I so wish that won't happen. May you always have space and energy for those special activities.