I'm a mess

I am in a really bad place right now...too much drama in my life..I can't make anything right for anyone...Feel like I am hanging on by my fingernails.

They just don't know that I can't be the strong one right now...I am tapped out. They expect so much....and I am having so much difficulty keeping my mask on and functioning at work and at home.. I just want to go to sleep until this goes away....

I know the feeling
(((Susan)))

I'm scared...

What are you scared of?

((((((((((((((((((susan))))))))))))))))))

can you talk it out? can you let us know a little of what's going on?

Please stay safe

((((((((((((((( Susan )))))))))))))))))

Susan

My daughter...recently separated, no money, very emotional, seems to think I can make everything OK for her and I have tried so hard (since January) to support her financially and emotionally....she just found out that her ex is seeing someone else....called me at work 5 times today crying, her cell got turned off because she couldnt pay the bill and she came by and took mine...she got an eviction notice because she coudn't come up with all her rent money. I have no money to give her....I have no resources to help her...I can't pay my own bills....

Been so depressed lately and my H is feeling like I'm not giving him enough attention, so we haven't been getting along very well...

I just want to curl up in a ball.....

(((((susan888)))))Me too, a mess that is. Wish you all the luck in the world. Sending you many hugs.

In the midst of drama, may you find restorative moments of rest. No need to be strong here.

I told her she needed to get help so she did see her Pdoc and got on Prozac and Wellbutrin. I guess it takes a couple of weeks to start helping. She also got a referral to a T....I'm so worried that she is going to do something stupid. She fell down a flight of stairs last night and had to go to the ER...

It's just too much and I am not in a good place right now...I just want to disappear....

I just can't do this anymore....

(((((((((susan)))))))))

Please be strong, I know you can... I know it's hard but it will all work out, it always does... I pray for you and give you strength, I am with you.

Hugs for you...

Love
Jay

(((JayS)))

I just don't feel like I can....I feel like nothing is ever going to be OK. I'm so tired of battling this depression...

((((((susan888)))))))

I hear you, I feel the same way... but it has to get better, you are stronger then this depression, that's why you are here... please just try and beat this, I know you can.... I care very much for you and am sending you my love.

Susan,

It sounds as if you are the only one bearing the brunt of the load. That doesn't seem fair in my opinion.

You have to take care of you! If you don't, then everything will go to he** in a hand basket.

(((Jay)))

You are such a wonderful person! Thank you for your encouragement!! I really, really needed some support tonight.....I will try to keep trying...Thank you so much!!! I just feel so hopeless....Maybe tomorrow I will feel better.....

Thank you Notz! I am the only one she has.....I have tried to make boundries, but really she has just become more needy since I did that....I love her so much and I can't bear to see her hurting so much...but, I am not OK.....

If I am wonderful it is because of wonderful people like you... you give me strength so I can give you strength... you or not hopeless, it only feels like it because of this illness but you are very strong and will overcome all, just keep your faith and believe you will beat it... you will and in doing so will make you stronger.

Hold on to what makes you smile
even if it's the last dandelion of the season.
Hold on to what you desire
even if it's a love in your dreams.
Hold on to your convictions
even if it means going against the will of others.
Hold on to your faith
even when it seems like its slipping away.
Hold on to your thoughts
even if you've no one to share them with.
Hold on to us
we will carry you through.

Love
Jay

(((((susan888))))))
I am thinking about you and sending you good vibes, Hang in there, you are so worth it!
Take good care of Susan

Hang in there Susan. Somehow things have got to get better, right? My thoughts are with you.

I'm so sorry for what you and your daughter are going through. I hope it will all work out for the best

In the meantime hang in there and take good care of yourself

She is talking to her ex tonight...I think they are going to try to work things out...I hate this back and forth for my grandson...They are both so immature..I told her that she needs to remember how unhappy she was (even before she found out he cheated on her with her best friend) and still seek counseling before she makes any decision to go back...He has lied to her and cheated on her and in the last 6 months really made no effort to change that I can see.

In my heart of hearts...I would love nothing better than to see them have a healthy relationship and that would be best for my grandson...and my daughter. But he has never been able to deal with her chronic bladder disease.

I am just a ball of anxiety tonight..she is going to tell him that she has been with someone else since they have been separated and I don't know how he is going to take that...I tried to get her to wait until she had a T appointment to do this, but she is determined to do it tonight.

My H is upset because we have done so much for her to get her out. So much money...helped her get an appt, paid a lot of her bills, bought her a car...I don't know how to make him feel better about this. I don't know how I feel about this...

Geez...I can't even manage my own life/issues....I think I am finally losing it...

Susan
Hang in there, you are a very strong person
I know what it is like to want to do everything for our children but sometimes we have to let go or we will lose ourselves.
Take good care of yourself, dont forget you are a very important person