No one listens

You say the couselors "seem fake" - but have you talked with any of them yet to find out if they really are fake? Don't lock doors before you've actually looked to see what's inside. You have to start somewhere - even getting one of the school counselors to advocate for you in getting appropriate assistance elsewhere would be a positive first step. Give yourself a chance - use whatever resources are available to you at the moment to give you access to better resources down the road.

Hi, maybe the people who love youjust find it easier to ignore your problems because ignorance is bliss. Maybe they try to forget it and push it away because it taints their image of you. I know my parents are like that, I have a few problems that they never talk about, maybe to keep me from thinking about it, maybe so they don't think they got a son who isn't what they wanted him to be. At least you can talk here. I don't feel like I have anyone who listens, but this site seems pretty cool. I will listen, as will many others.

thnks..n yeah I've tried before, I get a fake smile as shes telling me this will fade, or its just stress.

Frankly, I suspect it is really intellectual lazyness that leads to this behavior in a lot of people. My mom and a sister more or less regulated me to being the family charity case when II was diagnosed. My duty was to be poor sweet little quiet wacko that they were so bravely taking care of...my dysphoric mania made that a lost fantasy pretty quickly. since I don't play the game I am pretty well talked down to, ignored or questioned about every little decision I make. Both of these women are technically very smart, they stand on opposite political poles, and they each prune reality until it fits their viewpoint. If it sdesn't fit, then it is discarded. And they say I'm nuts. I realize that this is way too much to put up with when you are depressed already, and they are playing into your depression's lies. Thank God you're bf is not doing so! Sounds like a keeper.

I know how it feels though. I am a male and have a lot of trouble talking about my feelings or talking to anyone else about their feelings. It does really make me feel sick. It just feels stupid and, over-the-top for some reason.

I am sure your dad does really care but like nearly all males, doesn't like to talk about 'feelings' or anything like that. My dad and step-dad alike treat me exactly the same way!

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yeah...your prolly right I.T.D. its still hard thought.

but, thank you