[coupe-chic]

im sorry to everyone if i keep annoying you all with my pointless threads about how i feel, this is the thing i annoy myself when i talk about how i feel so i can only imagine that im annoying alll of you, for that im sorry,

i just dont know who i am, or whats wrong with me, i feel so good one minute next minute im so down, righ now and i feel this way more and more i feel so worthless, feel im not good enough for anyone, feel like im disappointing people no matter what i do which gets me even more upset, then i think im not good enough or pretty enough for my boyfriend and i think he should be with some one else, and that gets me more upset

feeling all these things is confusing and is upsetting me and muddeling me up and i just dont know what to do anymore, just feel if i was on my own away from everyone i wouldnt hurt or disappoint people anymore,

i know i need to get help but i dont like baring my problems on anyone dont want to burdon them, i have such a hard time expressing how i feel, what iv gone through in life and what im still going through, i just cant seem to tell anyone cause it hurts me to think about my crappy life, i know this is a long read and im sorry, just feel like crap right now and didnt know where else to turn

[depressedalaskan]

Originally Posted by coupe-chic

im sorry to everyone if i keep annoying you all with my pointless threads about how i feel, this is the thing i annoy myself when i talk about how i feel so i can only imagine that im annoying alll of you, for that im sorry,

i just dont know who i am, or whats wrong with me, i feel so good one minute next minute im so down, righ now and i feel this way more and more i feel so worthless, feel im not good enough for anyone, feel like im disappointing people no matter what i do which gets me even more upset, then i think im not good enough or pretty enough for my boyfriend and i think he should be with some one else, and that gets me more upset

feeling all these things is confusing and is upsetting me and muddeling me up and i just dont know what to do anymore, just feel if i was on my own away from everyone i wouldnt hurt or disappoint people anymore,

i know i need to get help but i dont like baring my problems on anyone dont want to burdon them, i have such a hard time expressing how i feel, what iv gone through in life and what im still going through, i just cant seem to tell anyone cause it hurts me to think about my crappy life, i know this is a long read and im sorry, just feel like crap right now and didnt know where else to turn

(((((coupe-chic))))) Keep posting, this is a place to ask questions, get out your feelings, be understood and share your thoughts. Sorry I don't have an answer for you, I am crap today also. Hope some hugs will help.

[Rohag]

Hello, Coupe-chic!

Originally Posted by coupe-chic

...i feel so good one minute next minute im so down...

Here you say you are feeling good for a "minute" and then the next "minute" you feel depressed, yes? Are these actual 60-second minutes or do the good and low periods last longer, and, if so, how long? When you "feel good," how long does that good feeling last? What are you like when you are "feeling good"? And when you feel low, how long do those times last, longer than the good stretches? When did this roller coastering between good times and low times start, or has this been going on all your life?

Please do not feel obligated to answer my questions here. Based on your post, I suspect a therapist might want to know the answers to those questions. Here you are free to complain and rant and cry and just plain be unhappy. In much of the world those may be annoyances, but here they - and you - are welcome.

[coachllama]

((((((((((coupe-chic))))))))))

Please know that the threads you post don't annoy me, I'm happy that you are able to talk about it to some extent.

Please know that people always care, I am always willing to listen.

You might want to start thinking about seeing a therapist and telling them you have a difficult time talking about things.

hoping you feel better

-Adam

Originally Posted by coupe-chic

im sorry to everyone if i keep annoying you all with my pointless threads about how i feel, this is the thing i annoy myself when i talk about how i feel so i can only imagine that im annoying alll of you, for that im sorry,

i just dont know who i am, or whats wrong with me, i feel so good one minute next minute im so down, righ now and i feel this way more and more i feel so worthless, feel im not good enough for anyone, feel like im disappointing people no matter what i do which gets me even more upset, then i think im not good enough or pretty enough for my boyfriend and i think he should be with some one else, and that gets me more upset

feeling all these things is confusing and is upsetting me and muddeling me up and i just dont know what to do anymore, just feel if i was on my own away from everyone i wouldnt hurt or disappoint people anymore,

i know i need to get help but i dont like baring my problems on anyone dont want to burdon them, i have such a hard time expressing how i feel, what iv gone through in life and what im still going through, i just cant seem to tell anyone cause it hurts me to think about my crappy life, i know this is a long read and im sorry, just feel like crap right now and didnt know where else to turn

Your posts are definietly NOT annoying - They are whats needed to help you heal. This is where people vent and share.

This is all I have - but please continue to reach out, please

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((coupe-chic))))

I am glad you posted and you do not annoy me. We are here to listen and never judge. You are most welcome and I would encourage you to post whatever you need to say. You need to take care of you and if posting helps you then it is a good thing.

Getting help is also a good thing. You are not bothering people by going for help. Asking for help is a sign of strength not weakness. Reaching out and giving someone the opportunity to listen and reach back is many times a blessing. I know for me to be able to encourage and care helps me.

It is okay to be you----to let go and cry, rant, complain, and just be who you are. We care and want to be here to hear you. I hope you will keep posting and sharing. I know it can seem different at first--but we want to hear what you need to say.

Sending you gentle hugs if that is okay. Know we are here for you. Feel free to pm me if you would like.

dps