[depressedalaskan]

I live in my body but my mind belongs to depression. I am not me any more. I am depression. I fight depression every day - for years, but why? Depression owns me, it controls me, it haunts me, it just will not leave me alone. Everything I learn, all the medications I have taken, all the therapy I have been through is all to fight depression. So why does it seem that depression always has the upper hand? Why can't depression just give me one full day so I can be me - who ever that is?

Sorry for being negative I just want depression to stop. Hugs for your day.

[Miracle1986]

Originally Posted by depressedalaskan

Why can't depression just give me one full day so I can be me - who ever that is?

I ask myself that quite often.

[idontknow13]

Hugs for your day DepressedAlaskan
I also want the depression to stop, for all of us...

[pegasus]

(((((((((( depressedalaskan ))))))))))

I understand. I wonder if you have come across the concept of 'time-sharing.' You say in your post that you spend a lot of time fighting the depression and have tried all sorts of things. With 'time-sharing' you allow a little time each day to let that depression take over. Just sit with it for an hour a day. No more than than. What it does is to let the brain have it's time to feel yucky and then you can get on with things. You accept the depression as part of you. It doesn't rule you constantly because it stops fighting you and you stop fighting it. It takes practice though.

[depressedalaskan]

Originally Posted by pegasus

(((((((((( depressedalaskan ))))))))))

I understand. I wonder if you have come across the concept of 'time-sharing.' You say in your post that you spend a lot of time fighting the depression and have tried all sorts of things. With 'time-sharing' you allow a little time each day to let that depression take over. Just sit with it for an hour a day. No more than than. What it does is to let the brain have it's time to feel yucky and then you can get on with things. You accept the depression as part of you. It doesn't rule you constantly because it stops fighting you and you stop fighting it. It takes practice though.

How does this work? I am interested. Thanks, Hugs for your day.

[Naturefreak]

((((Alaskan))))

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Babysteps09

((((Alaskan))))

I second the motion.

This is a question I always have

I pose it as

Who am I, when I am, where I am

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((depressedalaskan))))

You are you. A person who depression has gripped and is lying to you. You are a good person. Someone who is very supportive and friendly. Someone who is a good friend and who has not given up. You keep reaching and asking and trying. You are not depression--for I hear you fighting back and asking.

I hear what you are saying, and I can relate and understand. But reaching out and posting is showing depression that you are not giving in or letting it win. It wants us to sit back and not reach out or say anythng because that way it can consume us. But in speaking out--we take away its voice.

Know we are here for you and listening. We care and you are not alone. Many of us feel the same way at times, but in fighting back--we defeat the depression even if it is one babstep at a time. Sending you many gentle hugs and wonderful thoughts.

dps

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((((( alaskan )))))))))))))))))))

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by depressedalaskan

I live in my body but my mind belongs to depression...

I ponder the same. Have I given up? Do I care if I've given up?

Before I pull a Rohag and spill thoughts all over the page...I admire and support you, Alaskan, and all others who are still fighting.

[Naturefreak]

WHO AM I ?

IF YOU DON'T KNOW THAT , WELL I'M TELLING YOU NOW....

SOMEONE SPECIAL

[depressedalaskan]

Originally Posted by darkpurplesecrets

((((depressedalaskan))))

You are you. A person who depression has gripped and is lying to you. You are a good person. Someone who is very supportive and friendly. Someone who is a good friend and who has not given up. You keep reaching and asking and trying. You are not depression--for I hear you fighting back and asking.

I hear what you are saying, and I can relate and understand. But reaching out and posting is showing depression that you are not giving in or letting it win. It wants us to sit back and not reach out or say anythng because that way it can consume us. But in speaking out--we take away its voice.

Know we are here for you and listening. We care and you are not alone. Many of us feel the same way at times, but in fighting back--we defeat the depression even if it is one babstep at a time. Sending you many gentle hugs and wonderful thoughts.

dps

You are right I am (we are) a fighter of depression. That is who I am and I will have to be, to defeat depression. Hugs for your day.

[crislsoul]

Originally Posted by depressedalaskan

I live in my body but my mind belongs to depression. I am not me any more. I am depression. I fight depression every day - for years, but why? Depression owns me, it controls me, it haunts me, it just will not leave me alone. Everything I learn, all the medications I have taken, all the therapy I have been through is all to fight depression. So why does it seem that depression always has the upper hand? Why can't depression just give me one full day so I can be me - who ever that is?

Sorry for being negative I just want depression to stop. Hugs for your day.

Sorry you are having a bad day. I feel pretty much like you do. Depression is a cruel theif who steals our happiness away and relaces it with tears, anxiety, and unrelenting sadness. But we cont. to fight for our sanity and pray we won't end up in a mental institution ( such a fear for me)! I also fight and hear that some are healed of it! I send you loving thoughts and hugs all the way from south jersey!I hopr things better for you very soon!!!

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((depressedalaskan))))

Sending you continued thoughts and hugs. Hoping you are doing okay and continuing to fight. I know you can do this and we are here to walk with you. You are going to be okay. Just keep reachng out and letting us know how you are doing. We genuinely care.

dps

[John59]

Originally Posted by depressedalaskan

I live in my body but my mind belongs to depression. I am not me any more. I am depression. I fight depression every day - for years, but why? Depression owns me, it controls me, it haunts me, it just will not leave me alone. Everything I learn, all the medications I have taken, all the therapy I have been through is all to fight depression. So why does it seem that depression always has the upper hand? Why can't depression just give me one full day so I can be me - who ever that is?

Sorry for being negative I just want depression to stop. Hugs for your day.

I can understand how you feel I have suffered from depression most of my life. I have had all kinds of meds and all inds of therapy. I'm going through a major depresssive period right now. Depression ahs taken over. I wish I had some answered for you. But i don't Im sorry. I can't safe myself at this point.

[depressedalaskan]

Originally Posted by John59

I can understand how you feel I have suffered from depression most of my life. I have had all kinds of meds and all inds of therapy. I'm going through a major depresssive period right now. Depression ahs taken over. I wish I had some answered for you. But i don't Im sorry. I can't safe myself at this point.

Your response tells me a lot about us both, we are both here to fight the same thing. By showing up here we know we still have some fight in us. Please keep posting and fighting. We will win some day.
Do you have a therapist or someone to talk to? This will also help some. I take medications also. But I think that PC has helped me a ton. PC is just a place where there are others like me and they understand how depression really hits a person. This is something I never knew until I got here. Thanks and Good luck, hugs for your day.