Why bother

Why even bother... Never mind. You people don't need/want to hear it.

Of course we want to hear, that's why we're here. Let it out - no one will judge - we'll just listen, care, and offer support as best we can.

Of course we want to hear it! That's why we are here together. To share each other's pain and joy, good and bad. To be supportive and caring. To give and get what so many of us do not get in real life. Go on and vent, rant and rave, we can take it.

(((((tryingtobeme))))) Open ears here my friend. Don't let depression tell you that we don't care or don't know how you feel. We do. Hope you have a wonderful day.

We do want to hear it. That's what we are all here for to listen to each other.

((tryingtobeme))
We are here to listen . Let it out .

No details, but your post says much. Pain and tears grip you, friend. Know we're here - there, silent witnesses of distress. Share nothing and we'll sit quietly by your side in your trouble. Share everything and we'll listen and reply according to our best understandings. Either way you have us.

((((((tryingtobeme)))))
We care

I hope sooner or later you'll feel safe enough to post here and let us know what's going on We'd be glad to listen and to help

(((((((((((((( tryingtobeme ))))))))))))))

((((tryingtobeme))))

Your name says it all. You are being you. There is no judgement, no ridicule. We do care and are here listening to what you say and what you cannot. Your tears say more than you know.

I am sorry you are feeling so bad. I know how sometimes no words come, nothing but fear grips you, depression grabs you and tells you lies and you cannot seem to see for the blinder it is holding in front of your eyes.

But you are important and what you feel is important. It is you--it is what you are--and you are welcome----feelings--good and bad--we are here for you.

This is a place that we can come and let out what you are feeling. Sometimes we are right there with you but always listening and ready to let you know you are not alone. Everyone's pain and hurt is important.

I know how hard it is sometimes to let down. But know when you are ready we are here. And even if you aren't we are here for you. Just waiting--with open arms and open ears. You do matter.

Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Know that your tears say so much and we are right here catching them. You are not alone.

dps

Thank you all for the kind words. I just lock up when I go to write on here. It's such a challange just to talk sometimes.

I feel like a complete failure. I can't get over my feelings for my T. They run so much deeper than what I have previously shared. I want to scream it out loud just to get it out but it is so embarressing. I feel I can't do anything right that my T ask me to do...I just want to give up.

Things just seem so confusing right now. Don't know where I am going with T, my marriage, am I raising my son well, can I ever be the person I want to be. I look back and I feel that I am keeping myself from changing, when I don't want to be that used, abused, corrupted little girl like I was, and still feel I am. I still feel I am all to blame for my life, even after 2 years of therapy.

I just think it is useless. Everything seems that way.
I am going down, way down.

Thank you for seeing how I feel even though I didn't put anything. Also thanks for thinking of me.

I don't know what it is that you think is so embarrasing .
I would take a little embarrasment over suffering anyday.
You'll know when your ready , if you ever are .
That's entirely up to you. Any please NEVER GIVE UP.

((((tryingtobeme))))

Still here and sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. You are being thought of and we are here when and if you ever want to talk. There is no shame or judgement, just open hearts and ears to listen and be there to give you support and encouragement. We care.

dps

For what it's worth, I think you can still become the person you want to be. There's always time for self improvement.
I don't know about your marriage, but I'm sure you're a great mother from what I have read in your posts.
About your T, could you perhaps talk to him about whatever it is that's bothering you so much?

Take care

(((((tryingtobeme))))) I just had a thought here - do not be upset. This is a good reply.

You are right we do not want to hear it. For one reason only - and only one reason. YOU ARE CURED. Otherwise bring it on and if you do ever find a cure please make one last post to share it with all of us. Many hugs for your day.

It's in my other thread, about my feelings for T and how out of control they are. Plus what I wrote in this tread. I think it was the second time I responded in this tread.

Thank you. I did talk to my T about it. I still feel so horrible. It's in my other thread, about my feelings for T and how out of control they are. Plus what I wrote in this tread. I think it was the second time I responded in this tread.

I will shout it to the world if I am ever cured.

If it is really really bad - maybe it is time to change your therapist. I guess I don't know what else I would do. Hugs for your day.

aw we care!

It's hard to ask for help, isn't it? Isolating is such a big part of this disease. But you posted to the forum so you are reaching out and that's such a healthy thing to do. The ppl here are so warm and accepting and caring. I know they've helped me a lot just yesterday in fact. So here's a hug from me, too.

Thank you all for showing your support. I am in a very deep state of depression right now. I'm trying to keep my head above water. I appreciate all the kind words and support. THANK YOU!