Acceptance and Insecurities

I don't know if this should go in the depression forum or the self-esteem forum .
Does having an acceptance issue stem from being insecure and how do you work on being more secure about yourself.
I feel I have to be something I'm not , a superhero , just to be accepted by others IRL . I don't feel worthy enough to even have friends because I don't think I could live up to their expectations.
I'm just so screwed up with everything right now and it just seems
overwhelming to me . Friday night and alone again. That's 1,043 Fridays in a row , 20 years worth. I'm not alone here though ,
I'm happy about that.

(((((((Babysteps))))))))

Thanks idontknow , just knowing you're here means so much.
I hope you are doing better these days . Hugs my friend

It's Friday??? Glad you know what day it is. My days are all one.
Sorry not funny - but true - I don't know what to say, I like alone but then sometimes I don't. I know that I don't like to be around other people any more. So sad I am. Hugs for your Friday night and all the other days my friend.

I only know it's Friday because I saw the date on the newspaper this morning. Otherwise it's Tuesday.

Wow!! You have me beat - you can read and remember. LOL I know smart ***** I am being. Sorry

True, Babysteps, you're not alone here. I believe you when you talk of your insecurities and loneliness. I believe you too, Alaskan, concerning your isolation. And it makes me sad. You and many others here are so full of love and care, yet an illness has piled a mountain of debris against the door of living relationships.

I feel grateful, though, I've gotten a glimpse of you all through this electronic keyhole. What I see is at once beautiful and terrible - people of paradise living in hell.

Were I a superhero, I'd scatter that mountain and open the door. But I'm not.

I dunno about you but sometimes *actually very often* I put too much thought into others expectations. I assume they have standards that are WAY WAY WAY too high. And it takes alot to stop and think *wait,... if that were me what would I be expecting?*... it depends on the friend but most of the time it's no superhero

((((((((((babysteps09)))))))))))

Your post also made me sad. I wish that I could take away all of the pain and sadness (and all that goes with depression) that you (and so many others) are feeling.

I really like what Rohag said, and I agree too. It made me think of the Sara Evans song "To Be Happy". I love music, so I really like to refer to my favorites. I wish that I could take away everyone's pain and that everyone could be happy. I know that our trials help us grow, but sometimes it would just be nice not to have to go through the pain. kwim?

You're in my thoughts and prayers.



I'm grateful to be able to come to PC and get a glimpse of you all here too.

Here's that Sara Evans song:

To Be Happy lyrics

If I had one wish, I would wish for two
For me and you to be happy
With the way things are, sometimes gets hard
But, we've come so far to be happy

[Chorus]
Yeah, don't think that I'm complaining
Sometimes it keeps on raining
Oh but don't be frightened by thunder and lightning
The sun comes out and the flowers grow
And you find you're already on the road to be happy

If I had one prayer to pull out of thin air
Everyone, everywhere would be happy
We'd hand out Valentines, I'd be yours, you'd be mine
There's a place, there's a time to be happy

[Repeat Chorus]

[Bridge]

Well we fuss and we fight
We can't see the light
We wake up and decide
We don't need to be right to be happy

[Repeat Chorus]

Thanks everyone for the excellent advice .
Alaskan - Don't have to apologize for being a smart *****, I'm one of the biggest there is . lol . If you give it, be prepared to take it.

Turqoise - I agree , I put too much thought in a lot of things , mostly negative things .

Rohag - You are a superhero to me . All of you are for having the strength and courage to go on .

Keepinghopeful - Love that name , love the music , I didn't mean to make you sad. I am grateful for you and all too .

Idontknow - I wish we all knew .
Hugs

I don't know
I have not the least idea
Me neither.
Me too.

I can relate to counting the Friday nights (I count the Saturdays). I guess what I want to say is that I know how you feel and I know how awfully it sucks. I hope you'll find someone to whom you'll already be "worthy enough" and who'll have no other expectations but for you to be yourself. That's already true for us here. So there's a good chance of being true for other people irl, you just haven't met them yet I truly believe this.

Sending you hugs