someone please

someone please just kill me now... im nothing but a **** up i dont deserve to be here, all im doing is hurting people by being here. noone wants me here or around them so please someone save me the trouble an just kill me PLEASE

Oh, Teary_me! I and the many others touched by your spirit long to relieve you of your pain, and, if we could, we would transport you to a land without harm and hurt watered by rivers of love. Though it tears at us to observe your torment, we could never voluntarily extinguish the life of such a dear comrade. Maybe we're selfish; we don't want to lose you. Your small corner of the world may devalue you, but we experience you as a uniquely faceted precious stone, who reflects deep, enriching colours. You are a joy!

((((((((teary_me))))))))

((((teary_me)))) Why so low??? You are wonderful caring person. Don't let depression do this to you. Depression got you this bad today? Let it all out. Here or on a piece of paper - write it down. Rip the paper all up and throw it in the trash. Throw depression in the trash. We are here for you.

By the way you have not told us how the beach trip went. Did you have a good time?

Just read your other post - no need to answer this one I am very sorry to hear what you are going through I had no idea. My bad.

(((Teary Me )))

a strong person you are Teary.
never in the mist do we feel we can pull out
the heart feels so heavy as if your chest could just open and fall out
tears are stuck in the throat
the mind sees nothing but fuzzy blackness

Teary through power of your fingers tips they reached out to this place where you are so cared for, so loved, so tickled with

Your fingers are the power that is holding you up, helping to release your inner pain

the hurting passes, yet again it can come on so quickly

in all sincere honesty if all of us could reach through to be with you it would be done

Teary today I give you 1/2 of my heart 1/2 of my strength and all of my love

I am sitting next to you - not in your space, but just letting you know You dear Teary are never alone

Here at the forum it may seems just a computer web site -
but it is more -
if you take a deep breath you will actually be filled with all of us

caring for you is also caring for ourselves

So let us care for you

((((((Teary_me))))))

I am sorry you are feeling so bad. We would all miss you if someone took you up on your request. Please take care of yourself.

thanks everryone. its just sooo darmn hard i dont know what to do anymore... as for my beach trip well im kinda still here so it hasnt turned out the best trip so far

teary you are so loved here. I am so sorry you are so low. All your friends , ( so many ) love you so much. I really hope you can get to see someone to help you through this. Always remember u are loved .

Rosey xxxxx

Please know that we all care (((teary me)))

((((teary_me))))

Dearest friend. Even in the midst of the storm, you found strength to reach out. You found your voice to let us in. Thank you for that. I understand and I know how you feel. I myself have said those exact words just yesterday.

I know how it can seem to be when we are going through something, and the world and everyone around you feel so far away and like no one cares. Of how depression takes where we are and twist it into something it can use against us.

I know how the thoughts and emotions can get to twisting within so fast and suck us right within a vortex of feelings that we have learned to believe from a long time go. Something that is ingrained within us before we even knew how to think anything else.

I know how if the vortex keeps spinning, before we know it, it becomes as a twister that has lifted us up and we cannot even touch the ground. It throws us around relentlessly with no mercy or care as to what it is doing.

In those times, it fills our minds with things that are not true, and the faster it goes, the stronger it's hold on us. And though you try to stop it, it won't. It just keeps going and going and continues to fill our minds with lies.

Until you finally have to scream stop. Put on the breaks. And think about all you are. Think about all your friends who think you are a wonderful, caring person. Someone who gives of herself and reaches out to others to offer love and encouragement.

I see no one I could ever hate or want to be gone. You do not deserve to hurt. You never deserved anything that was. The lies depression is telling you are just that. And remember it does not care who it attacks for it has no respecter of person.

I know how it is that in this place it seems the darkness will never lift, and the pain will never cease. And how you feel as though you cannot breath and it feels as though you will choke for not being able to get enough air to go on.

You are strong teary, stronger than you even realize. I know how it feels you are hanging on by a thread, and even the thread is frayed and your fingers are griping yet sliding. But we are here to catch you and hold you up until you can get your footing once again.

We are never going to leave you. For you are worth every tear, every word, every letter. Someone told me to not think that everyday is going to be dark, or that the next few seconds are going to be dark. To live in the present for it is there that we find our strength.

I did not understand at first, but in that they were telling me not to listen to what I thought to be true. Not to let depression keep those old lies going. But to reach forth to what I know to be true now. To grab onto what I have learned.

I know in the midst of everything sometimes that is hard to get ahold of. But even if you can for a second, then grab it second by second. For you are worth so much, and I know for me----if you were not around my life would be missing one special friend. Someone I care and love very much.

We are not our past, for we are growing and learning everyday. Words of a friend are stronger than lies we were once told. I never understood that until over the past couple years. And I know that when you are in the storm, you cannot see that for all the debree flying around.

But hold on dear friend. For all storms come to an end, and the rainbow no matter how faint or strong comes. And we grow and learn if we faint not. We are all here for you, reaching out with open arms, quietly walking beside you and right here whenever you need us.

Whether you can feel it or not, you are needed and wanted. And I know that you can do this and the love and support of all of us is right here. Reach out when you can and hold on. For you are worthwhile and valuable to us and to yourself.

We love you and are here for you. Always. Sending you many gentle hugs and healing thoughts. Please keep reaching out and letting us know how you are. Even if all you can do is sign your name----we are here.

dps

Teary, my dear sweet teary, if you could but realize how much you are loved here for who you are. How much we miss not being a bigger part of your life. I hope I will see you online soon honey. I miss you, and my heart goes out to you.

Oh teary we need you and want you. I hope you are feeling better. Just remember we love you.