[Icecreamman31]

But I've finally got my laptop working again...

Just an update... In the last month, I've had my car break down in more ways than I thought was possible (spending well more than I bought it for to fix it), gotten fired from my ****** job that paid too little that I needed too much, gotten evicted from my apartment because my best friend bailed on me, moved in with my dad (who's divorce with my mom had taken a hefty toll on my from the start), and (last but definitely not least) begun the signing process and taken the practice entrance test for the Navy.

Now, when I look at the list above... it looks like a ton of things that would piss me off. But, honestly... the part that pisses me off the most is that the Navy does piss tests- and my dad is a straight-edge Bible-thumper. I preferred staying in my state of slightly conscious/ partially numb version of reality mixed with party, however fate decided to change that path. I smoke a lot more cigaretts now, and have joined a Tai Kwan Do class (spell check fail) to take out some anger sparring once I hit yellow belt.
I doubt it will work, and need some sort of solution... anything that can suddenly get someone over a 5 month binge of alcohol, weed, pills, and the basic party lifestyle. I miss my roomies, my beer coozie, even the stains on the carpet from beer and the heavy odor of cigarettes. I miss being able to provide for myself, not rely on my "mommy" or "daddy" for help. I guess that's why I'm running to the Navy, to get the hell out asap (damn delayed deployment). I'd rather sink in my own debt alone than watch them fail at life with my little brother's dependent on them.

damn, I need a drink... smoke break here I come

[lonegael]

But, honestly... the part that pisses me off the most is that the Navy does piss tests-

OK childish, I know, but that had me laughing when the overall email wasn't so funny.
Maybe the piss tests will give you the motivation to find another way of dealing with the depression. I'm just afraid that You'll end up doing what so many folks do and end up making the depression worse from the effects of the stuff you are taking to feel better. Whew, long sentence.

Why will your folks fail at life?

Anyhoo, take care and let us know what happens.