[Berries]

After such a long time of feeling low, I felt so good yesterday afternoon and evening then out of no where had an anxiety episode but got over it.

But today I feel so depressed. Like death warmed over. So, so down.

WHY???????????

[Rohag]

Hi, Berries!

Originally Posted by Berries

WHY???????????

First Thought: Because depression is like that.
Second Thought: What kind of an answer is that!? That doesn't help Berries or anyone. Don't you care enough to put some thought into a reply?
Third Thought: OK, how about this: Depression is a mood disorder affected by brain chemistry and is not fully understood by the scientific community. Erratic mood cyclings may present as part of the disease.
Fourth Thought: Oh, so you think by restating your First Thought in pseudo-sophisticated technical language you think you can pull the wool over peoples' eyes and make Berries feel better!? What a _____!
Fifth Thought: Sorry Berries. I don't know why. But I want you to know that despite my ignorance I want you to feel better, at least feel as best you can in the face of this illness.

[Berries]

Your reply to my post made me chuckle and that elevated my mood a bit. THANK YOU!!

(((((((((((Rohag)))))))))) [as usual]

[trevorzero]

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[theotterone]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Hi, Berries!

First Thought: Because depression is like that.
Second Thought: What kind of an answer is that!? That doesn't help Berries or anyone. Don't you care enough to put some thought into a reply?
Third Thought: OK, how about this: Depression is a mood disorder affected by brain chemistry and is not fully understood by the scientific community. Erratic mood cyclings may present as part of the disease.
Fourth Thought: Oh, so you think by restating your First Thought in pseudo-sophisticated technical language you think you can pull the wool over peoples' eyes and make Berries feel better!? What a _____!
Fifth Thought: Sorry Berries. I don't know why. But I want you to know that despite my ignorance I want you to feel better, at least feel as best you can in the face of this illness.

LADIES AND GENTLEEMAN! THE ONE, THE ONLY, THE FANTASTIC ROHAG!!!

Originally Posted by Berries

After such a long time of feeling low, I felt so good yesterday afternoon and evening then out of no where had an anxiety episode but got over it.

But today I feel so depressed. Like death warmed over. So, so down.

WHY???????????

Berries, look! YOU GOT OVER IT! Now I realize that adrenaline can only run full tilt for about 10 minutes, but YOU GOT OVER IT!

You are relieved testing is over (WHEW!) You are nervous to get the results and wonder what will happen once it is all said and done.

Honey, we have gone through this too. Even if I feel I "came out the other side" I still have my off days (See yesterday, HELLO! )
You will learn what works for you. I know that with winter coming (live on the frozen tundra I do!) that with the lack of sunlight it will get harder for me. I also have a hard time allowing myself to have "bad days" or "down days". To help, I have told the BFF (he was worried yesterday) and my neighbor friend that if they see that I am "depressed" or "down" or "high anxiety" for more than 3-4 days, they need to bring it to my attention.

Love yourself enough to know that there will be ups and downs until you have more information. There are ALWAYS ups and downs, even when you become more balanced!

Besides, we are here for you!

[ADHD1956]

Originally Posted by Berries

After such a long time of feeling low, I felt so good yesterday afternoon and evening then out of no where had an anxiety episode but got over it.

But today I feel so depressed. Like death warmed over. So, so down.

WHY???????????

[googley]

Berries,
Try to remember that you had an anxiety experience and were able to get over it! You will be able to get through this also. Do you have something to look forward to? I try to find something to look forward to when I'm depressed. (Though not always successful). We care about you. I hope that you feel better again when you wake up tomorrow.

[VickiesPath]

Theotterone, you are AMAZING!

Rohag, I'm really worried about you.

[theotterone]

Vicki, this Otter is pooped! And going to bed. Send some warmth up Midwestern way, K?

[justfloating]

((((((((((Berries))))))))))


I'm sorry, I'm a bit low on words this morning, but I do have tons of hugs to give. Hope you feel better soon.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((( Berries ))))))))))))))))))

[Pomegranate]

Berries, if you or I could answer that "Why?" we could write a book and be gazillionaires! After years and years of dealing with depression and anxiety, I still, very often, have no idea why some days, weeks or months are so bad or why suddenly, a day or days, a week or weeks, is/are so good!??? Just know you aren't alone. I have found that simply dealing with what IS at any given moment is better than trying to figure out the why. Sometimes we know why we feel the way we do, and sometimes we don't. Either way is okay, life goes on.

[lonegael]

You mean you had a panic attack and worked through it alone???? !!!!!!Berries!!!!!! Fantastic! I mean, that s really hard work! No wonder you felt kind of down the next day. I usually feel like c- warmed over in the mornings when i am depressed, and fell even more spectacularly so towards evening, but my energy is better (if you can call it that) at night. I can see why you are really getting hit by the diurnal (day light) rythm. Hang in there (((((Berries))))). There will be more successes

[lynn09]

Originally Posted by Berries

After such a long time of feeling low, I felt so good yesterday afternoon and evening then out of no where had an anxiety episode but got over it.

But today I feel so depressed. Like death warmed over. So, so down.

WHY???????????

I think that those of us who deal with depression, et al, need to remind ourselves that there are definite physiological things going on during and after anxiety episodes, etc. - during the episodes, all sorts of hormones are being pumped into our systems AND our blood sugar is burning up like crazy. This results in wild fluctuations in our body chemistry which don't level out immediately - may take a day or two to build the blood sugar level back to where it should be and get the extra adrenaline and other stress hormone levels back down - so not too surprising to feel a low afterwards. Also, I discovered long ago that I absolutely had to stop allowing myself to get anxious, stressed, or depressed about being depressed 0r about having an anxiety episode - it just magnifies the intensity of the up or down. "Why?" you ask, ((((Berries)))). There are many answers to that question - just simplify it by understanding that the mind does not function completely independent of the brain - and how the brain functions at any given moment is affected by whatever is going on with the rest of your physiology; i.e., don't be overly-concerned about it - it is what it is - do whatever you need to do to cope with the moment whether it is up or down.

As for you (((Rohag))) - I have just one question - just how many people have you got living in your head?

HUGS FOR EVERYBODY!!