[my3sns]

i am struggling so much

[Naturefreak]

(((my3sns)))

[Wants2Fly]

I am so sorry that you are feeling badly. Me, too. It stinks.

[FeelingHopeful]

aw hugs to you guys im struggling too

[Berries]

(((((((((((my3sns)))))))))))



Would you like to share how you are struggling so much? We'd be glad to listen.
Otherwise, we'll just sit with you and offer you gentle hugs.

[justfloating]

[Junerain]

Could you write more about the circumstances/feelings that are causing you to feel this way? Others can relate, if we only knew a little more

[my3sns]

i feel so worthless , hopeless, exhausted ect.. i have been seeing the warning signs for a few weeks now , but dont know how to head this off. my thoughts are bad. probably need to place myself inpatient , but im hoping that i dont have to. yet i feel so scared , confused , sad and like i am a burden to my family as well as society. last week i told my t that i wanted to quit therapy but i was in no shape to make such a decision. i was able to go in for my appt afterall and i guess i thought it would help

[my3sns]

but it didnt. i was so scared that my t would place me , i have no clue why but she didnt, and i held nothing back. i just am so tired of this over and over again. meds dont seem to be helping much and i dont even know what started this . i am currently 9 1/2 months clean and sober , but i am ready to even give that up.

[Junerain]

Is inpatient truly a terrible option? I had a great experience there, you get your meds adjusted, you make true friends due to the depth of what you share, you have music therapy, you get a whole new T and perhaps sign up for partial hospitalization later,

Why do you feel like a burden to your family? Perhaps you could get involved in activities until you make true friendships strong enough to replace the need for family, that is what I have done..

You have stumbled upon a great community here, we care about you

[my3sns]

its not so bad no. i have had overall fairly good experiences , but i am financially very concerned. dont have the money for any more medical bills. hell i have less than 2 dollars in the bank and dont get paid till the 30 th. basically i work for insurance. there is so much right now.

[googley]

[Berries]

(((((((((((my3sns)))))))))))

How are you feeling today?

Please keep safe. And really think--do I really want to go backwards? Call your T if you need to. Call your pdoc and tell him how bad you feel. Maybe he/she can adjust your meds?
Please keep posting. We care a great deal and are here to listen and offer support.

[lonegael]

Oh (((((my3sns)))))! Totally understand being afraid of inpatient. I was too, even when it probably would have been the best thing for me. Feeling fo you, hon. Make sure you're safe.

[my3sns]

i am still here. doing about the same. im scared to call the pdoc, dont know i can trust her, but my t knows how im doing and probably already told the doc since they are in the same office. i dont know if a med change is a good idea, heck i dont need access to more meds. i am scheduled to see the t this wed and the pdoc on the 15th. hopefully i will hang on till then. heck i managed to find my way here a few times so i guess i thought i was worth something.

[Junerain]

(((my3sns)))

You have invaluable worth (((worth)) You are a human being created by a higher power, and He does not make mistakes

Do things you like, like take a bubble bath or listen to your favorite music until those appointments come..

Why do you feel you cannot trust your Pdoc?

[my3sns]

if she knew she would most likely call someone.

[Rohag]

Hello, My3sns! Just wanted to let you know I'm reading along, following your posts and wishing you the best

[Berries]

Originally Posted by my3sns

if she knew she would most likely call someone.

(((((((((((my3sns))))))))))
Who would she call? Someone in your family? The hospital? ???

[my3sns]

probably the police to take me to the hospital

[Berries]

Originally Posted by my3sns

i am scheduled to see the t this wed.

How did T go yesterday?

[my3sns]

she was out sick

[Berries]

Originally Posted by my3sns

she was out sick

((((((((((((my3sns)))))))))))

I'm sorry to hear that.
My opinion--call today and reschedule. I don't think you are in a condition to just wait until your next scheduled appointment.

[my3sns]

seems hard to imagine , but today feels even worse. i am so snappy and have an overwhelming need to just cry. have no idea why. i despise crying!

[theotterone]

My mother, who I have found is very wise despite what I thought when I was a teenager, told me everytime you cry, something inside is healing. It's ok to cry.