[Chelle23]

It has now been 4 full months since I fully stopped taking all antidepression and anti anxiety meds to try to get pregnant. The first three months the symptoms were just physical: nausea, vomiting, fever... After three months the depression symptoms came back hard core for about 20 days. It was like I fell into a whole. Then it was like a switch went off and I felt better. It has been about 10 days of feeling better. My biggest fear is that this will be a cycle: 20 days of emotional turmoil and 10 days of feeling ok, repeat... I have acceptance that the feelings are almost completely chemical and I have no control over them. It is really difficult to feel so out of control though. Last month around this time is when I "fell" into the emotional whole for 20 days, so I am anxious and worried that it might happen again. I don't want to worry so much that I cause a self-fulling prophecy and make myself fall into the depression either. So I'm writing about so I don't isolate and to see if anyone has any thoughts or wisdom... Thanks
-Chelle

[lonelyperson92]

I really admire you, Chelle. You should be bless for making a big sacrifice for your child, and I think that you should think more about your moments with your future child - like what schools would he/she go to, what would be his/her name, etc.

Hugs

[phoenix47baby]

Chelle,

Good for you for standing strong and making such a positive move. It sounds like the meds are just working their way out of your body naturally and you are having some cycling while they work themselves out. I wouldn't worry too much about having a lower mood again. You are on the up. Just look forward and stay strong. Sending positive thoughts for you. phoenix47baby

[Chelle23]

Thanks so much for your responses!!!
I'm so glad I found this site It such a great support network. Thanks for being there.

[turquoisesea]

just wanted to add hugs and wishes of good luck to this thready

Looking forward to seeing you more around these forums

[lonegael]

Hang in there. You made the right choice, and it's god you told us all here so you won't have to go it withoutout anyone around who understands. I had to go off for both my boys. Wasn't fun all the time, but I'm glad i did.