[Abby]

I'm so so so so so so so so so so so so so tired.

I feel the only consistant emotion i feel is tiredness. Actually it is more than tiredness, it is exhaustion.

I find people are so overbearing and a mass of chattering activity. I want it all to go away so i have some time to breathe.

But i've shut down so many areas of my life, i've shut out so many people i didn't have the energy to interact with anymore in order to give me that space to breathe and rest and i'm just as tired.

I feel as though i am a robot that simply reacts to situations. I'm too tired to care or feel anymore. I don't think life would be so hard if i felt love, compassion or comfort but they are simply an intellectualized concept for me. If i felt those things it would give me somewhere that i could stop and recuperate.

I wish it would all make sense. I feel so empty and yet i function. I can cope and yet i permanently feel as though i'm going to fall apart. It is exhausting.

I want to move forward, i want to be able to feel nice emotions for once. Emotions that will give me some rest.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Abby

...i've shut down so many areas of my life...and i'm just as tired.

Abby, have you seen any type of health care professional to discover (or, attempt to discover) the source of your tiredness?

[pegasus]

I do relate.

Sending hugs ((((((( Abby )))))))

[trevorzero]

Yep, I know exactly how you feel because I feel the same way.

I find myself not wanting to interact with most people because they seem so shallow and empty and vapid. It's like they're all goofy drunk and I'm the only sober person in the room.

[Abby]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Abby, have you seen any type of health care professional to discover (or, attempt to discover) the source of your tiredness?

This time last yr i went to the dr and attempted to explain the tiredness but he just wrote it off by saying lots of people at this time of yr are feeling tired. He did take some blood but they came bk normal and i heard this over the phone and was too demoralised to go back. I think this is emotional exhaustion not due to anything physical. thanks.

Thanks pegasus and trevorzero for replying, i had a feeling people might relate. I can't seem to find any escape from this anymore. I may talk to my therapist about it but to be honest i'm so darn demoralised by mental health professionals i don't see much point in doing so.