a friend of mine called me on the phone half an hour ago. he wants to talk about finding a job, cause we've been talking about jobs before. he said he got a call for an interview tomorrow, and he had 2 other interviews before, as well applying to few numbers of companies. while i havent even try to find one. he started to giving me a quick lecture about how lazy i am. there's nothing wrong with that really, i know he just wanted to get me motivated. but i have my own situation. i hate myself for being so slow on everything, always left behind, the last number. im not in a good mood for the whole day, and then this, this just making it worse. im such a loser. like i always be.

i have my own plans for my future when i was graduated from highschool, i told my parents about my plans, but they dont agree with it and demand me to go to another direction, they said this and that blabla. and now im stuck with it for the rest of my life, who's fault is this??? i always thought it wouldn't be this way if my parents would let me at least try to do what i want 7 years ago! now i cant do anything, im really trapped!! im confused about my future, my life! doesnt help with my depressed at all. i really just want something right now, something i dont know, i cant think clearly, too many things messing with my mind

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