[TheShadow]

This is my first post in the depression forum. I am currently very depressed. I have had several episodes of depression throughout my life with two suicide attempts. I have several chronic medical conditions. Several years ago I had a terrible medical experience that lead to the development of anxiety. This current episode of depression started in May and I sought the help of a therapist. In September, a stressful family issue send me spiraling into a severe depression with thoughts of suicide. While I was going down, my mental health benefits for my insurance ran out and I am unable to afford therapy.

I feel somewhat stable now and I am currently working on my depression on my own.

[Puffyprue]

hi the shadow ..welcome here
iam sorry for what happened to you its good you feel stable now
iam working with my deprssion on my own too i think if we know our self better we can do it well its not easy but we can if we slip iwe just have to start all over again just never give up ...
anytime you need to vent or rant or just need support we all here for you ..
keep posting and thanks for letting us know how u're doing

[phoenix47baby]

Dear Shadow,

What a trooper you are! You have survived through a lot of stuff and to lose your benefits is unduly difficult. I am glad you are working through your depression on your own but wish that you could get some public assistance to help you see a therapist down the road. Keep hanging in there, doll and you will persevere! Sending hugs your way, phoenix47

Welcome, TheShadow. Good luck.

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((TheShadow))))

Thank you for trusting us enough to post here and welcome. I am glad you posted and are a part of PC. I am sorry you are feeling so low and have been through so much. The fact that you are still working on yourself is a testiment to your dedication to recovery.

I am sorry that you lost your benifits and that you are no longer going to therapy. That can be hard. I applaud you for trying to work on your depression. Maybe you could look into some help from somewhere in your area. Talking to your doctor can help too. Maybe they can give you something to help. Having someone IRL to talk to is important.

We are here for you and want you to know that you do matter. I hope you will keep posting and keep us updated on how you are doing. I know how depression can lie to you and tell you things that are not true. It can cause you to shut down and feel like no one is there.

But please do not listen. You do have something to say. Keep talking. Keep reaching. Together we can defeat this thing. Together we can walk and reach forward. Together we can take another step that otherwise we may not be able to take.

Thoughts of Su**** are not easy. I know I have been there. Sometimes just needing to escape and there is nothing else that makes any sense. But know that you are worth living and making it. The lies of depression are not worth our lives. With everyday we make it, it is one more day that depression loses.

We are here for you and listening. Thank you for posting and for reaching out. You are not alone. We care. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts.

dps

[lonegael]

Welcome! Hope you find this a comfortable, safe place!

[TheShadow]

Thanks for all the nice posts.