Hate being triggered

I hate everytime I try to join a discussion, my opinions and what I have to say doesn't really matter. This has happened in every group I get involved in. Then when I ask someone to go to a separate room so I can talk about it, then I get blamed for not caring about them.

1) am i really that bad of person that no one notices or give a craps...wait let me answer that...YES I AM!!!

2)Does my privacy not matter? Wait...I know....Of course not. Who cares if I have any privacy. If I am not catering to them then well I'm crap.

This is just the start of another week of feeling like nothing is left....wait there isn't anything left. Then why am I here? I guess I shouldn't be.

(((((((((((tryingtobeme)))))))))))

You are not a bad person. Your privacy does matter. I am so sorry you feel like nothing is lert for you.
But you should be here. You are here. That means you should be here. You have a purpose. You just don't know what it is yet.
Please don't shut down. Keep posting. Rant and Rave and Vent your feelings.
I care!!!!

Hi, Tryingtobeme!

I understand from your post you've been triggered by events either here at PC (or possibly elsewhere), possibly in chat, yes? (I may easily be way off; sorry.) I ask because chat kinda intimidates me and I rarely participate.

I'm sorry these events have triggered negative, unpleasant feelings. Certainly, you and everyone here deserve privacy, deserve to determine their own level of participation and self-revelation, and deserve a full hearing.

As you find the energy, do please continue to post. Your posts reflect both deep pain and deep compassion. These boards are the richer for them.

((((((( Tryingtobeme! )))))))

(((((trying to be me))))) I know that the chats can be kind of sensitive places, so I generally don't go on them. I'm afraid I would have to have my foot surgically extracted from my mouth, and I would probably hurt someone. As I think we discussed before, you are not crap. Hang around on the boards with us non chatters, then. I would find it a crying shame if you were to leave all together.

Thank you for caring, but you shouldn't. I'm not worth it. Your life is far more important so you don't need to take time for me. You say I have a purpose, I guess at some point I would like to know what that is.

I'm just so ready to give up, I feel I am at my rock bottom....

It was in a group chat hosted by someone else here. I guess I feel it got way off base and I kept trying to answer the questions being asked and nobody gave a crap....that is what I am any ways...crap, so I guess it was legit.

stay far, far away from the chats..

it is easier to express yourself COMPLETELY in a POST

You have worth, dignity, beauty, honesty, sweetness, I am sure of it, please do not give up.......keep your head high

I stay away from the chats too, always have always will

The true beauty comes from these threads

I'm sorry I haven't been able to be here as I wanted to today. You most certainly AREN'T crap! How could you possibly think that when you have a son who loves you? (yes I know I have one too and I feel that way so sometimes I think I'm a hypocrite)

The point is, you always offer wonderful words for everyone as like you saw in my other post, sometimes I feel like I fail people in chat which is why I've had to try to stay out to give myself some breathing room. It's like group talking when everyone is wanting to talk at once but nobody really knows what to say. I've been in that circumstance IRL and it's not fun. It's much harder when you have to try to type it out live. Just as with these threads, sometimes the current topic gets way off base. It's just the nature of things dear. Just as our lives feel sometimes like they're off base when really home plate is wherever you're at at the present moment. Does that make sense? (and I'm not a baseball fan but it seemed like a good word to use)

(((((Tryingtobeme)))))

You're not alone, you're cared for and you're courageous for doing what you have to do right now for yourself and your child.



Chris

chat is a healthy place to be. i've had lots of fun chats there a lot of the time. If its triggering change rooms.

Tryingtobeme.
I have a very similar problem...though I have a very loud voice, I constantly am pushed out of circles at school and people tend to ignore my opinions. I view myself as a worthless person.