[justfloating]

A few interesting things happened today.

I did not sleep well last night. I don't sleep well most nights but what little sleep I might have gotten was interrupted by the fire alarm at 1a.m. so I REALLY didn't sleep well. When I'm tired, I simply don't have the energy to fight off the depression, probably the same way when you have the flu you aren't about to run a marathon. I got to my one class of the day but I was late, half-dead and I have no idea what was going on. It took everything I had not to burst into tears in the middle of the classroom.

This is not particularly interesting except for the fact that today there was also a meeting to launch the new modern languages magazine at my school, which is something I was interested in working on. Every bone in my body just wanted to crawl back into bed, which wasn't particularly helpful because it meant I didn't have any kind of willpower to stave off my nerves at having to walk into a room full of strangers for this meeting. I'm very, very good at making excuses. I can rationalize absolutely anything. Five minutes before the meeting I had myself absolutely convinced that I wasn't going to go and it was fine and I could just join the magazine next year. It's how I miss most of my opportunities, because I manage to convince myself that there'll always be time to do the things I want to do. But to walk home I have to walk past the building where the meeting was being held and I have no idea what happened, but my feet just carried me in there anyways even though all I wanted was to get home to hide under my covers. Somehow, I went into that meeting, got the information, signed on with the marketing and design team on a complete whim and had a second impromptu meeting with them where I aired some views on how I think the magazine can be improved. On top of that, I will be writing an article on why it's important for French students to be taught about other francophone countries besides France, which is due in two weeks.

I did it. On a day when I woke up feeling lower than low. And I don't feel particularly good right now. After that meeting I was so drained I did come home and got into bed and have not gotten out since, but I DID IT. I just wanted to share.

[googley]

YEAH!!!!!!!
That is great. Good luck with the article. I'm glad you went to the meeting.

How wonderful, justfloating! Thanks for sharing and good luck!

[lonegael]

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[idontknow13]

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that is great! You should be really proud of yourself, it took a lot of courage! So happy for you

[Berries]

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[turquoisesea]

Good for you!!!

I'm so glad to hear some good new coming from you, I know it's been tough lately.

Good luck on the assignment too, it sounds like an interesting one - I never thought about it but in French class it was ALL about France... but there's more than France out there.