[Ms Lonely]

These past few months have been really hard on me. I am always in pain, I lost my job, I can't get unemployment and all I can do is wait and see if I get approved for disablity. I'm so tired of waiting. I don't sleep, I lie in the dark for hours with migraines. I keep taking the medicine, but I still feel terrible. I don't go out because I'm afraid I will hurt myself and others.

I want so much to be happy. If I can get just one happy hour I would feel like there is a chance for me, but everyday gets darker than the next. What am I going to do? I don't know who I am anymore. I don't even want to try either because I don't have anybody that cares about me. I just want to be able to have some peace.

[phoenix47baby]

Welcome to PC. Please, please reach out and get some help. If you cannot afford it there is public assistance. All you have to do is look in the phone book under social services and/or phone a help line and they will direct you to help. Thanks for reaching out and I wish you well.

[HistoryChef]

Originally Posted by Ms Lonely

These past few months have been really hard on me. I am always in pain, I lost my job, I can't get unemployment and all I can do is wait and see if I get approved for disablity. I'm so tired of waiting. I don't sleep, I lie in the dark for hours with migraines. I keep taking the medicine, but I still feel terrible. I don't go out because I'm afraid I will hurt myself and others.

I want so much to be happy. If I can get just one happy hour I would feel like there is a chance for me, but everyday gets darker than the next. What am I going to do? I don't know who I am anymore. I don't even want to try either because I don't have anybody that cares about me. I just want to be able to have some peace.

I too suffer chronic pain. I am also debilitated with anxiety and panic attacks. I have not been able to leave my home since December, 2004. My Social Security disability was interrupted then, and I have not been well enough to even begin to advocate for myself. I joined here last week. I like what I see so far. I hope that reaching out can help you somehow. You are in my thoughts this day.

[lonegael]

((((MsLonely))))) Welcome and hope that you can feel you are supported by us here. Keep posting, and hang in there. Do you have a T? If not, the doc who prescribes your medicines needs to know that they aren't working. For all I know they might be making things worse. What are you taking? Hugs.

[IrishMe]

Mslonely,

One thing for certain as a newbie myself, I've already found massive amounts of support here and tons of information. Everyone is so willing to help and chat and help you over the bad days ( or months)

I to am like you, waiting on disibilty for my COPD and Depresson, and it's hard. And it adds to the feelings of "what do I do now". The financial strain of waiting and not knowing is depressing in itself. But we will make it thru this. I try everyday at least once to think if I get approved and all that back pay...I'm finally treating myself to at least a haircut. It's hard to look foward when everything now seems to be stacking up on you.

I to, suggest telling the doc that the meds aren't working. Don't wait for him to ask you if they are. If you don't tell him they aren't he will assume everything is fine. And if one med doesn't work there are many others that will react to your chemistry better. Call him if you have to...they can always call in a perscription to the pharmacy even on a holiday.

And You've come to the right place to find people that care! I've been reading constantly for the past several days and already feel welcome and like I've joined a huge family. It makes a huge difference for me to come here and I hope you will continue to do so.

Keep posting...getting answers, support and careing from an awesome bunch here! It helps more than even I realised.

[idontknow13]

((((((MsLonely)))))
I am sorry you are going through such a hard time. Keep posting, you will find a lot of caring and understanding people on this forum.
Take good care of yourself.

[MissE1088]

I was unaware that you can receive disability for psychological disorders. If anyone can direct me to some information about doing that I would be very grateful! My anxiety has gotten so bad the past couple years that I can't even work more than two days a week, and work is too overwhelming on me it is hard for me to speak to people or get out of the house most days. I am also bipolar and obsessive compulsive, among other things.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by MissE1088

I was unaware that you can receive disability for psychological disorders.

Please see this thread. I wish you success!

[IrishMe]

MissE I sent you some links to S.S. and another info link, "a cheat sheet" if you will.

I wasn't sure if I could post links here or not? My suggestion is to read read read everything you can on S.S. Be informed.

Good luck!

Please continue to post, Ms Lonely, so we know how you are doing. Good luck.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((( Ms Lonely )))))))))))))

[trevorzero]

"Happiness" is a very elusive goal to pursue in life, for just about anyone. But you can pursue other worthwhile goals, such as being strong, or loving, or giving or trustworthy or many other things. These other goals can be much more readily achieved than "happiness" and you may find out that "happiness" just might result as an after-effect of accomplishing these other pursuits.

[tonih]

Dear Ms Lonely.....I am a few weeks new to PC and have found info and encouragement. It is a good start to feeling better. I am on disability and it is a ling process. Try not to get too discouraged. In the meantime, look for ways to get help. There are resourses for the economically challanged. Also, there are new treatments and research for migraines. Try searching the net for help. Perhaps you could get into a drug study. Anyway, have hope and keep posting. you are not alone. Tonih