[flynvfae]

hello...
this semester at this school im at has been very, very terrible
it's also my first fulltime college semester, i only was part time before...

anyway, i want to go back to my old school and figure out who i am again. i used to feel like 'being myself' and following my own interests was selfish.
i dont know why, and i still feel like that alot of the time.
i think it has to do with church lol, it always gives me a guilt trip about everything...
but thats another story in itself

so i really wanted to go home, go take some art and dance classes, get a job, get a car, so i can be independant, you know? but i feel so down its already passed the deadline to get in the school. but theres no way in hell im staying at this one!
eh ok thanks for letting me rant about my depression
love kristin

[trevorzero]

I understand very well how being in a state of confusion can really make life seem like a total mess. All I can say is to keep trying to look at your choices with a clear eye, free of emotional baggage, and sooner or later something will clear up and you will be able to take your first purposeful step.

[Taff]

Something to try...

Write down what you want to do, so it's clear and on paper. Then write down the pros and cons. At least, it gives you a better idea of what you want to do and may even give you the motivation.

Believe me, I know all about lack of motivation and wish you all the best.