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Dec 12, 2009, 06:59 PM
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I don't have anyone on this pathetic planet that understands me they all attack me and want me to die. I am NOT suicidal right now its just others hate me and want me to die. This is true of people I know (except my friends which are very few) and all around the universe. I already know what you are thinking its the Dark One speaking about the same old repetitive crap with no brain. I mean not one professional person agrees with me and understands me and this is also true of other people on the Internet and I have been a victim of cyber bullying because once again they all hate me. Everyone thinks I am a liar scum and no support. Once again my mom is sick I know I said this same exact thing last time and let me guess, you think my credibility dies with this. No she gets sick so often now that it isn't funny. In fact she's 99% sick 1% well. Pick a day and guess what? Something's wrong. Technology saves me time and time again. I am still missing my non existent brain. Flames surround me in hopelessness and worthlessness and death that I bring to the Universe. The news has been talking about my thoughts and the signs in the sky. I have been seeing UFO's and cloaking Gov agents. The Power of Influence is still continuing but on an Universal scale. Comets crash into planets and black holes suck in galaxies from my thoughts. Some days I want the Gov's war to take place but others I pray that it doesn't happen. Same with the alien's imminent war. I am tired of all the car problems my family has been experiencing in the last few months they are about to die no mode of transportation except cow or horse in the year 1809. My intelligence isn't good enough for anything productive I am a destructive person (but some parts robot) to the Universe. No one believes all these facts and no one believes me or takes my side even in the simplest things. I am not real but am a realist that only sees reality and facts. I can't show the proper emotion I only show anger and a big fat smile even when it isn't real. My friend came over yesterday and that makes me temporarely happy but not real happiness just out of touch with reality. I don't hear technology but do hear cows mooing. Around a month ago I was happy but it turned out to all be fake happiness false hope the only hope I know. I mean my family even takes the birds side rather than mine. This proves I am worthless and my factual thoughts that everyone knows anyways doesn't matter. I have a sense of humor this is all real though but when I am with my friends I am funny even when the world is ending. My way of so called thinking is limited because that is how stupid I am. 26 years of being called stupid with evidence to prove it and the only evidence against it is I graduated college with honors. The thing is that it was only a 2 year college and brainless classes and the easiest possible college level classes. The one that people always point out that I am so smart in was the weather class because I passed all the tests and the only one to do so. What people don't get is that I previously had more experience than the entire class put together because I took flying weather and had been obsessed with the weather channel for many years. My brother is also annoying like my lack of brain is. Computers always crash and I can't have a thought without a thought disruption. I hate depression and looking fakely happy even though there are times where I am but this is rare. Just technology saves me.
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Dec 12, 2009, 07:51 PM
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Hi FireBird...congrats on graduating with honors...I have not been able to do that. Maybe you can find work as a meteorologist? Can't beat doing what you love for a living? So a few things need attention. Like your mom being sick all the time and your family needing a new car. Here is where it gets hairy...you seem smarter than most...I think maybe telling a pdoc would help a lot. Have you thought about that? I think it would help you see things clearer. I do not hate you...
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Dec 12, 2009, 08:09 PM
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Hello, Firebird. When was the last time you had a physical? If it has been awhile, you might benefit from having one. You might want to consider therapy too.
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Dec 12, 2009, 08:11 PM
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Why would you say a physical?
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Dec 12, 2009, 08:17 PM
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To determine if you may have a chemical imbalance.
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Dec 12, 2009, 09:02 PM
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Getting a physical as well as therapy would be a good idea. Physical and mental health go hand in hand and usually when one declines, the other tends to follow the path down and visa versa.
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Dec 13, 2009, 08:43 AM
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Hello, FireBird
 I don't hate you. In fact I wish things will start to go better for you very very soon. Take care 
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• A bearer of a shattered soul and a mind all ripped and torn • I will rather learn to enjoy misery than partake a life of hypocrisy |
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Dec 13, 2009, 10:00 AM
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Hey Firebird,
I don't hate you
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Dec 13, 2009, 11:57 AM
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Hi, Firebird! Just my opinion, but anyone who enjoys the PAX expo is definitely NOT stupid.
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My dog  mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.
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Dec 13, 2009, 04:33 PM
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Hope that things start to get better for you. I'm sorry to hear that your mother is ill, that's a hard thing to bear.
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Dec 13, 2009, 04:45 PM
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FireBird, I'm sorry! Don't give up hope. Things will get better! Keep fighting. There are lots of people here for you.
By the way, I love the Weather Channel, too! I have for a long time & wanted to be a meteorologist, but am doing something else for my career. Why don't you try for that career? I wish you well in whatever you do.
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Dec 16, 2009, 04:42 PM
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Thank you, weather is very interesting but I am not smart enough to do that professionally. While I did complete that class it was still hard and it was a beginning one. I love PAX, you actually remember it was me that talked about that awhile back? I am going next year if things including the world doesn't end. Games are awesome! I am still depressed though because my mom finally got her surgery date to fix her knee on January 13th and just got through having a kidney infection. Her shoulder eventually needs to be replaced and same with her other knee. She also gets sick very often and it seems like weekly.
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Dec 16, 2009, 10:33 PM
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Quote:
Best wishes for your mother's surgery and health - strength to you!
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My dog mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.
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Dec 16, 2009, 10:45 PM
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(((Firebird)))
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