Wish I was Someone Else, Being Me Sucks

Anyone else ever feel this way? Its funny because people wil tell me, Your a really great person and I just feel like Ya right, Thats why I cant do things right. So Down

Yup!!!

I'm there everyday. I don't really want to be someone else though. I just don't want to be, period. Maybe I could be a dandelion flower....then I would change into one of those wisher puffies and I could blow away in the wind so all my little seeds could go back into the soil and I could bloom again. There could be pretty little Ely Dandies everywhere.

Yeah....I have always wanted to travel.

That's an absolutely beautiful picture! And I hear you both.

Who would you rather be ?
feelingsad

Im not sure, I just wish so badly my friend could confide in me, /I would not judge him, i know he knows that, he told me that he knows i wouldnt but I wish with all my heart he could talk to me and let me help him.

(((((Feeling sad))))))) Tough with the friend. I constantly feel like being almst anyone else would be preferrable. But I'm sort of stuck here, so I might as well make the best of it. Would be great to be abble to switch places with someone every once in a while. I get tired of always rowing with the oars I've got. Huggs.

its exactly what i would wrote! i feel the same way

I don't think you are doing anything wrong in regards to your friend. It is his choice to not confide in you. It IS NOT your fault he makes this choice. You cannot control this situation and it seems to be having a debilitating affect on you.
Would you consider letting him go?
I think him choosing not to have contact with you, at this time, is making your life a living hell. That is not fair for you. You deserve happiness. And you have so much to offer people. Maybe you should offer yourself to other people as well as to this man? You don’t ever have to forget him or stop hoping for reconciliation. But maybe you could choose to focus your energies elsewhere as well?

no letting him go is not an option not focusing my energy somewhere else hes a friend for life in this for the long haul

Feeling sad, I don't think that what Berries meant was letting him go. I think what she meant is that right now, for whatever reason, he is unreachable for you. I thhink she means that you risk harming yourself by trying to break through when he is not willing to make the effort himself. In order for you to make it through "the long haul" you need to budget your energy. You need to concentrate on things that are fun for you also, that give you a chance to recharge your batteries and keep being the interesting, loyal, gem of a friend that you are. As it is, I get seriously worried that you are burning yourself out. THAT is not something that I thin He would want, or you, as it is really unnecessary. Take a breath, don't stunt your growth by throwing too much of your soul into ANY ONE thing. I'm sure your firend would want to see you continue to grow and develop.
((((Feeling Sad))))))) I hear your heart breaking between the lines, but for your sake, you have to give your self room, not just him. Huggs
And Berries, if I misinterpreted you, give me a virtual kick, hon! Huggs

True!

Now it's a bit like waiting for leavened dough to rise. As far as you are able, FeelingSad, find a way to relax and regenerate during the wait.

Thanx guys, appreciate it, def understand a bit better, sorry if i maybe came off sounding defensive, love ya guys, i am trying to take care of myself better, least on the outside, kinda slacked on that, inside will take more work i know,my heart isbreaking but the one thing in my mind that i keep going back to, is him saying you cant get sick, you have to take care of yourself and in order for me to be ok, i need you to be . So Im trying i swear, i guess maybe my idea of focusing energies elsewhere isnt going out and partying and stuff ,thats too hard, esp without him, i just relax and spend time with friends, fam and animals to take my mind off things.

He sounds like a smart guy, Feeling sad. Now down to the hard work of being nice to yourself. HUUUGGGS!!!!!

You probably already know this, but it bears repeating.

You have to take care of yourself first, or you're no good to take care of anyone else.

That sounds great and very healthy.

Hang in there. YOU are important and worthy of having a nice life!!

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