[LynD]

Sorry, forgot to put May trigger in title.....
I'm so tired of all of this. No money, food, can't go anywhere cause no car insurance. I'm in a constant state of anxiety...I have this fear of impending doom hanging over me all the time, like the first time I ended up in the hospital after 9/11. My husband is gone, haven't hear a thing in over 2 weeks. He left, I could never count on him, just like my dad. 38 yrs and it seems like the only thing that has changed is the fact I don't drink and ended the cycle of alcoholism in my side of the family. I never complete anything I start because I have that 'never good enough' syndrome. I feel like I am being punished. I just want to be happy, or at least content and no matter how hard I try I can't. I know there are people worse off than me. I just dont know what else to do anymore.........

Sorry things are so bad now, LynD. Perhaps you might find some assistance here: http://www.mass.gov/mhlac/intake.html

Good luck.

[Perna]

It is hard being in the middle of a bad down time.

What would make you content? Anything you can do toward that? Sometimes I just want clean sheets and a good library book after a warm shower and a cup of tea and I can be content for awhile. Do you journal or anything? I find writing sometimes helps me feel better for a bit.

[lonegael]

LynD. I know that everything looks so black right now. I don't know who Masss. works when it comes to insurance and help with such things but i do knw this; anyone who is able to break the cycle of alcohol addiction that persistedin a famly is worth more Kudos than I can count' so don't knock yourself. To do that, you must be a woman of some stength and guts. Never forget that. Hang in there, dear. Don't let depression talk you out of solving your problems, because believe me, there are constructive solutions out there. Huggs!

[amante]

Lynd, sending gentle hugs your way, sounds like you are having a really low time of things, I hope this all passes soon. be good to yourself.

[LynD]

Feeling better. Talked to people in chat. Thank you Fox. I ate some cherrios w/ sugar. Seems to be helping. Going to have to keep an eye on that. Still frustrated some about the money issue, but feeling physically better.

[msolson81]

I'm sorry you are going through a rough time, but I am glad you found something that brings you a bit of relief. (((((LynD))))

[amante]

LynD,
your post sounded much more up and that is wonderful to read, may it last long. Cheerios and sugar, gotta love a big bowl of cereal as comfort food.

[LynD]

Yeah it freaks me out though hat just eating can change my mood and how I feel so drastically.

[poisonivy81]

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Keep fighting the good fight

[Belle1979]

Low blood sugar is a shocking when it comes to feelings (imo).
I have to keep reminding myself to eat something when I'm really down.
Big hugs all round

[LynD]

You all have to promise not to jump on me, but I didn't take my celexa last night and today I am feeling a million times better than yesterday. Only a small bit of anxiety because I had to go to court again. So I will def bring this up when I see the doc next week.