My living Hell

I wrote this long post to explain why things are bad for me. However my husband erased my post. He didn't want me to tell the truth or his business. So his my dilemma. I cannot get my husband to understand that he is neglectful. Five years in and still haven't received one good present. He's neglectful to me and our one year old daughter. Now what am I to do. I don't want to be married any more. I don't want him to have custody of our child. He is not made right. My daughter knows he's a bad daddy. She wont go to him. She cry's and throws her weight to the floor when he try's to take her. There are so many things I cannot name off. I don't believe in divorce but I don't want my daughter being around a lazy man. I don't want her to know how bad of a father he is. I would like to just pack up and leave. However I don't have any where to go.Do I leave him and wrong my beliefs or do I stay with him and hope he will change? I cant take living like this any more I'm at my wits end. My daughter deserves better. He promised no smoking no cussing. He has not held any promise to me. Always brakes them no matter how important or how petty. No counseling will not work. No family don't care. No therapy is not an option.

Is going to a woman's shelter a possibility? If I'd known one existed when things reached the breaking point, I would have gone in an instant. I can say I probably wouldn't have an SA under my belt if I'd known to go.

Please stay safe, for you and your daughter.

((((((((((((christopherm and your daughter)))))))))))

IMO, your daughter does not need to be raised around someone who she is obviously afraid of. Children can sense things and obviously there is something there she is afraid of. I understand your feelings about divorce but you also have to think about your daughter. She learns from you and from him. You wouldnt want her to think this behavior is acceptable, would you? I waited around for years for my ex husband to change. He never did. Never. I had to do what was right for me, for my girls and I backed one bag for each of us and left just like that. No toys for the kids, no furnature, nothing. Because I knew, I needed to make a life for my girls that they could be proud of. I was young, single, two small kids and I waited tables, delivered pizza's, worked at 7-11. I did anything and everything to avoid putting my kids in that environment.

I would call Social Services, or any type of womens shelter will be able to help you and your daughter. Please take care of you and the little one. If you need to talk further, I am always available via PM. Please keep us posted. Much love and peace to you.

Jen

Your stronger then you know. Please beleive that. Please dont let him keep you down. My prayers to you and your daughter.

((((((((((((((((((Christopherm & daughter)))))))))))))))))))

My husband has major family issue's I.E. they don't want to offer help just and uneducated opinion. They hate me and I truly am a good person. I guess I love him we planned to have our daughter. But I wanted three kids he agreed at first now being a parent he's like nope cant stand to be around kids. I have one sister and brother from both of my parents. Haven't really been around three of them at all. That sucks I don't want my kid to be like that. Told husband to get neutered and we can divorce. He knows how I feel and to pi$$ me off he's tells me if he finds someone else then he will have other kids. The women makes the man. I made him confident and strong. Supported him on everything gave him the power to degrade me. I just want what all women want. Respect love and companionship a positive role model for our daughter. I can't keep asking him to partake in this family. He wont eat dinner with us. Wont go to the park. Wont go for a walk. I wanted the beaver family. He said he did but now thats not what I got. If I leave him and he's happy with someone else. I'll die.

please find a woman's shelter and take your daughter and run, run, run there.......xoxo pat