[crmartin82]

I feel like I'm in a bubble and nobody outside can hear me screaming. I try to talk to my husband about how lonely I am but he takes it that I'm attacking him. It feels like I'm not supposed to go out and do anything and it feels like he doesn't want me to go out so I don't. I sit at home and go to work and I can't take this life anymore. That highlight of my worthless week is when I my 10 year old nephew comes to visit sometimes. Maybe the isolation is all in my head. I don't know. What I know is that I haven't cut myself since I was 14 years old and I started again. It's getting to the point where I am driving myself crazy....

Welcome, crmartin. The cutting is pretty definitive that something serious is going on. Please consider seeing a therapist. At some point, you might suggest to your husband that joint therapy might be beneficial.

Good luck.

[crmartin82]

I don't even think my husband believes that depression is real. I just talked to him while crying trying to tell him how I feel and he just gave me this blank shocked look. I walked away and he just stayed in his chair. He'll not talk to me for another day and then he'll pretend that nothing has happened and I'll play along until I break down again. This is how it was when I was a kid, why should it change?

It will not change if you keep doing the same thing. Call your general practitioner or make an appointment. Ask to be referred to a psychiatrist for evaluation. Give yourself a chance for a better life. Call today.

Please continue to post so we know how you are doing. Please, choose a better life. Get help.

How are you doing, crmartin?

[lonegael]

((((crmartin)))) sometimes guys I know do tht when they re scared and don'tknow what to do. Not understanding what is happening to a loved one is a very scary place to be. Take courage. Do you have someone you can go to, if not a therapist or psyhiatrist, then a counselor or priest/minister/rabbi/what have you? It is very hard to go this alone, hon. Please keep posting and please let us know what is happening with you. Huggs.