[No_longer_sane]

I've been looking through the posts on this website, and although everyone here has problems, most of you carry on with your lives; you are incredible! But on a more negative note, I have no idea what to do. I'm 15, and you may think Im a little young to be depressed, but it's true. I'm not even living, really anymore. It's a matter of getting through 6 hours of school, coming back home and staying at home. I only have a couple of friends, and they have all rejected me since I became quiet and weird, and I haven't felt happy in the entire of 2010, which is only a month, but that's how Im measuring it. And a lot of the time, Im unable to cry, I don't even have the emotional capacity, but the worst bit is this pain in my chest; a physical manifestation of my emotional pain, as someone put it in another post. As well as the fact I have racing thoughts constantly and am unable to function, and I act like the insane person that I am, So I feel guilty of lying to people about what I am, guilty for existing. I can't deal with it anymore, not that I am dealing with it. x

[Sadsunflower]

Originally Posted by No_longer_sane

I've been looking through the posts on this website, and although everyone here has problems, most of you carry on with your lives; you are incredible! But on a more negative note, I have no idea what to do. I'm 15, and you may think Im a little young to be depressed, but it's true. I'm not even living, really anymore. It's a matter of getting through 6 hours of school, coming back home and staying at home. I only have a couple of friends, and they have all rejected me since I became quiet and weird, and I haven't felt happy in the entire of 2010, which is only a month, but that's how Im measuring it. And a lot of the time, Im unable to cry, I don't even have the emotional capacity, but the worst bit is this pain in my chest; a physical manifestation of my emotional pain, as someone put it in another post. As well as the fact I have racing thoughts constantly and am unable to function, and I act like the insane person that I am, So I feel guilty of lying to people about what I am, guilty for existing. I can't deal with it anymore, not that I am dealing with it. x

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It's good to share with us on this forum how you feel, very good. I hope that you can also tell your parents so that they can talk to you and get you professional help if neccessary.

Hello, No longer sane. I am so sorry this is happening to you. Have you talked to your parents about the depression? You need help now. Please ask your parents to get you in to see a psychiatrist and therapist as soon as possible.

Good luck.

[thine_self_untrue]

Originally Posted by No_longer_sane

I've been looking through the posts on this website, and although everyone here has problems, most of you carry on with your lives; you are incredible! But on a more negative note, I have no idea what to do. I'm 15, and you may think Im a little young to be depressed, but it's true. I'm not even living, really anymore. It's a matter of getting through 6 hours of school, coming back home and staying at home. I only have a couple of friends, and they have all rejected me since I became quiet and weird, and I haven't felt happy in the entire of 2010, which is only a month, but that's how Im measuring it. And a lot of the time, Im unable to cry, I don't even have the emotional capacity, but the worst bit is this pain in my chest; a physical manifestation of my emotional pain, as someone put it in another post. As well as the fact I have racing thoughts constantly and am unable to function, and I act like the insane person that I am, So I feel guilty of lying to people about what I am, guilty for existing. I can't deal with it anymore, not that I am dealing with it. x

Ah. I can very much relate to this. Espically your inablity to cry. I hate, hate, hate, hate that. I feel unhuman.
The pain in the chest at least lets me know I'm alive.
If you want to talk, I would love to PM with you. I hope you find help and happiness soon.

Hello, my advice is not to wait until things get worse to get help. I have a cousin who almost never reaches out until it is too late and he ends up in the hospital. See a professional. Peace - Dennis

Originally Posted by No_longer_sane

I've been looking through the posts on this website, and although everyone here has problems, most of you carry on with your lives; you are incredible! But on a more negative note, I have no idea what to do. I'm 15, and you may think Im a little young to be depressed, but it's true. I'm not even living, really anymore. It's a matter of getting through 6 hours of school, coming back home and staying at home. I only have a couple of friends, and they have all rejected me since I became quiet and weird, and I haven't felt happy in the entire of 2010, which is only a month, but that's how Im measuring it. And a lot of the time, Im unable to cry, I don't even have the emotional capacity, but the worst bit is this pain in my chest; a physical manifestation of my emotional pain, as someone put it in another post. As well as the fact I have racing thoughts constantly and am unable to function, and I act like the insane person that I am, So I feel guilty of lying to people about what I am, guilty for existing. I can't deal with it anymore, not that I am dealing with it. x

[shezbut]

((No_longer_sane))

As you know, 15 isn't too young for severe depression. Many people suffer major depression at that age. I did. No matter what age you are in major depression, the effects are the same.

I'd recommend talking with your school counselor to get some help. If you can, mention how low you've been feeling to your parents. Not too descriptively, but not real "blandly" either. If you can, simply tell them that you are seriously miserable (have been for X amount of time) and that you need some professional help to make it through.

Gentle hugs to you...best wishes.

[No_longer_sane]

Thanks all of you for the supportive comments, I was worried that this would be a website like the others were I was treated like an alien, the weirdo that couldn't cope with a minor thing such as ADD, but so far you've all been very kind, thank you x

How is today going, No longer sane?

[lonegael]

(((No longerSane)))))) I had my first bad depressive episode at fifteen, and it has taken a while to get back on track. I mean in someways, the medications are better now, and people are more understanding in genreal, but it is still not easy. In my case, I had the god luck of meeting the man I have now, and the good luck of a, by and far, understanding family, although they can drive me around the bend faster than dropping lithium. I thik also, it is easy to allow depression to chase life away from one. The trick is to make sure that you insist on your right to have a life. Far harder than it sounds.
How's it going now for you? HUGGGS at any rate, dear.

[No_longer_sane]

It's been a little better today, just a few times I needed a minute to myself before it started hurting again, but sorry for the delay in a reply, not sure how the time difference works if there is one lol x

[BEEPbeeeeep]

Originally Posted by No_longer_sane

I've been looking through the posts on this website, and although everyone here has problems, most of you carry on with your lives; you are incredible! But on a more negative note, I have no idea what to do. I'm 15, and you may think Im a little young to be depressed, but it's true. I'm not even living, really anymore. It's a matter of getting through 6 hours of school, coming back home and staying at home. I only have a couple of friends, and they have all rejected me since I became quiet and weird, and I haven't felt happy in the entire of 2010, which is only a month, but that's how Im measuring it. And a lot of the time, Im unable to cry, I don't even have the emotional capacity, but the worst bit is this pain in my chest; a physical manifestation of my emotional pain, as someone put it in another post. As well as the fact I have racing thoughts constantly and am unable to function, and I act like the insane person that I am, So I feel guilty of lying to people about what I am, guilty for existing. I can't deal with it anymore, not that I am dealing with it. x

I am also 15, and Reading this post has shown me I'm not alone in how I feel. It sounds like you have the same kind of feelings as me ATM except that I'm also strggling with some kind of super anxiety I think might be some sort of people phobia. I don't know how to even begin to explain this to my parents, although you're still coping better than me, I can't see the point in going into school anymore, even though I'm in my last year an exams are only a few mnths away. Schhol, uni, work... I just can't see a point to it. I just stay In bed all day and don't talk to anyone.

[No_longer_sane]

I do the same, I have my GCSEs in May to June I think but I don't care, I doubt Im going to make it far, so Ive chose a really small college that only a couple of people from our school are going to. Normally I feel tired all the time, but I won't let myself sleep until 1 to 2am, which is stupid, I know, but I just wanna have a bit of control. And it's 8am now, dreading school x

[carrie-19]

Originally Posted by No_longer_sane

I do the same, I have my GCSEs in May to June I think but I don't care, I doubt Im going to make it far, so Ive chose a really small college that only a couple of people from our school are going to. Normally I feel tired all the time, but I won't let myself sleep until 1 to 2am, which is stupid, I know, but I just wanna have a bit of control. And it's 8am now, dreading school x

Hi No_longer_sane (: I couldn't help but spot your post. Your situation seems so like mine when I was your age (3yrs ago now) .I didn't understand how I felt I'd why I was feeling g this way. I stopped going out with my friends and went for days without having conversations. I felt so alone. I know how scary it is, but you've done the first step. Tell someone you know, anyone a friend family anyone. Once you have it will be such a relief. I know the thought seems daunting (it did to me anyway) but really it will help you so much. I myself was too afraid Nd confused to confront anyone about my thoughts ,one day I just refused to get up for school and lay in my bed crying. It was only then my family guessed what might be wrong. Please please look for help. I know sometimes you migy not think it's a big deal but you really should talk to some people hope this hasn't been too long . Remember we all care on here. If you ever feel the need to talk or vent feel free to contact me hope your feeling better soon ,
Carrie xo

[lonegael]

Where are you at just now (geographically)?

[No_longer_sane]

I'm in England, teeside, and thanks carrie, it's just my dad thinks it's stupid for teenagers to get depressed and he thinks insane people belng in "loonie bins".

[thine_self_untrue]

Originally Posted by No_longer_sane

I'm in England, teeside, and thanks carrie, it's just my dad thinks it's stupid for teenagers to get depressed and he thinks insane people belng in "loonie bins".

I don't think being depressed automatically makes a person 'insane'. Look up depression- it's an illness. There are resources everywhere (even on this site)

[lynn P.]

A person can have a picture perfect life and still feel depressed. I think your dad is thinking about circumstantial depression - where bad events or experiences get someone down. Depression is a real illness just like diabetes really. Many times it's caused by an imbalance on the brain and this isn't under anyone's control. You really need to visit a doctor. It may be simply a matter of getting on a good medication with some therapy and then you'll feel better.

[FeelingHopeful]

No longer sane, I wish i had words to make you feel better, I just wanted to let you know i care and if you wanna talk im here. Hugs!

[findingmy_self95]

I feel the exact same way, Im also 15 and im not surviving thru my depression either. I hope you get through this and Im not very religious but Im saying a prayer just for you.