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it happend again this time longer and i went to tell her something and she said you should tell your mom i said you are my mom she said laughing no im not she said i was her best frien not her daughter she caleled my dad "Me" she that it was her self but the part of her that will talke care of her and she keep saying things like i cant have chocolat my mom will be mad at me the only thing is my grandma is not alive eny more she died last years it hard because i miss my grandma and my mom thinking shes alive going to take care of her she said she was in brownys and that she hurt her back juring 'resece" like that thing you have at school but shes not in public school shes 40 and her back was hurt because she as deterating disks and had surgar a long time ago but she still get pain nowy i had to get my dad to get me from school today befor this happend thank goodness we got back in time befor this started but because i was haveing an neverse break down at school and wanted to do bad stuff to my self im just so deppresed my blood presssures so high that feel pbecause me hearing was weird and my body started to tingle and i couldnt see i wanted my mom but i cant tell her because she would get stressed out and the doctor said not to get her stressed ut im lost im losing my mom im lossing my mind im lossing everything i live for i dont no what to do when is this going to end . Help me please!


ps shes seeing a brain doctore now but hes also the doctor for the elypics and got called for vancover this is for enybody thats asked if shes seeing a doctor in my last post

[darkpurplesecrets]

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Sorry to hear what you are going through and I know it must be hard. Is there anyone that you are talking to? Is there anyone at school you have confided in? Are you close to your dad at all? CAn you talk to him?

I can tell you that I have gone through similar things when I was growing up and it is very scary. Many of the things you said I remember well like it was yesterday. I really hope you will reach out to someone and talk with them about how you are feeling.

Know that we are listening and we hear you. Please try to let someone know what you are feeling. I hope you will keep reaching out here and letting us know how you are doing. Know that we care.

dps

You are pillar of strength, redred.

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