[embracinglife]

I'm feeling blue. For some reason lately I've been having the strangest dreams. I guess this is common for me, but it's just getting annoying kind of. Okay...beyond those trivial things, I've been having sort of flashbacks bubbling into my memory. I don't know if flashbacks is actually the right word...They aren't necessarily traumatic events, just uncomfortable events, poor decisions that I made a few years ago. I guess I sort of blocked them out of my memory for a while. I've been making a lot better decisions these days and have been trying to turn my life around. I'm wondering why these old memories are bubbling up like that. Just kind of out of the blue a new memory will pop into my head. One time it was triggered by someone that I saw...but other times, I don't know why.

One of my hypothesis is that maybe it means that I am healing. Maybe I am feeling safe enough to have those old memories bubble up so that they can be healed. I mean, it does feel like I am healing and I have come a long way.

I still have trouble though with my depression and sitting with my uncomfortable feelings. Now that I haven't been drinking I've been turning to food instead for comfort. I know that isn't that great of a choice either, but sometimes I don't know what else to do. Any suggestions about how to get grounded when I'm having these overwhelming uncomfortable feelings? Or suggestions about how to deal with the feelings? ughh. thanks .

[cuterebs22]

I know this is going to sound silly, but I like to go for walks. I walk and listen to music and sing out loud. I kind of "escape" from what I am thinking, and think that I am in a music video or I am the artist. I know this helps me burn off steam and help straighten my thoughts. Try to do something that will let you just be, walking, riding your bike, exploring. Something that doesn't require you to really make any decisions. I think it is good to let your mind take a break during those times.

[yutzman]

I try to exercise, walk or run as the case may be......I listen to music when I can get myself to.......and I try to stay away from too much food and drink, which can weigh you down in more ways than one.....I know it's hard....but if you stick with it....it helps........

What does your therapist say?

[embracinglife]

i stopped going to my therapist a few weeks ago as I have in general been doing much better. thanks for the suggestions. i might try going for a walk or something.