[lonewanderer]

I don't fit. I feel like that extra piece you sometimes get in a puzzle box. You have... but have nothing to do with so after the puzzle is done and all the pieces fit together. That piece stays in the box or gets thrown away. I am apart. In a crowded room I always find myself in a space by myself or in a corner alone. I know it is at least in part my fault. I always feel akward around others and don't really understand people as people. I can be manipulative if I so choose but thankfully a sense of morality and guilt keeps me from doing so. I just seem to what buttons to push and what those buttons do but not how or why. So I stay in my corner and try not to get involved unless forced. Sometimes I feel so disconnected, so emotionless, I feel like mybe everyone can just sense it. Or mybe I just bury my feelings to well.

Hello, lonewanderer. Has anyone else told you that you do not fit? Where did this idea come from?

[Confused_1982]

(((((lonewanderer))))) Have you got a t or someone you can talk to? I have these same feelings and speaking to t is helping a little- I at least feel less alone when I am talking to him.

[thine_self_untrue]

(((((lonewanderer)))))

[lost_inthecrowd]

Yeah, I always end up thinking: how can i get the heck out of here? Maybe you haven't found the right people yet. Socializing takes a lot of work for us.

[NuckingFutz]

You fit in here. That is a start. I have felt like you. Safe hugs for you!

[Choson]

I totally feel you...
I used to be very social and am a natural extrovert.
So being so socially anxious really takes it toll on me.
I'm literally afraid of people, what should I say, what are they thinking of me, do they like me??
All these stupid doubts and fears, I hate it. Makes me feel sooo lonely and we need good relationships to be happy. Its in our DNA and when that's not there, we become sick. I hope you feel better soon because being like this is just not fair and you deserve to feel connected and not alone.

[idontknow13]

I have been there also and still am in a lot of ways.
You will find a lot of people here who understand what you are going through and who care. Keep posting.

[Lostforevermore]

((((lonewanderer))))

I know exactly how you feel...sometimes I also feel completely alone. Do you have someone you can talk to? Maybe a T? I've started talking to a T and it has helped a lot. Even though I still feel alone, it's not as bad anymore. I can talk to my T and also talk here on PC. I hope you find someone you can talk to.

[LoneScout]

Tough to feel this way, but what about at the end of the puzzle if there are 5 extra pieces, well here we are!
Is your challenge chemical? or maybe you are learning social skills (which I have had to learn) or something else?
Do you want to change, do you want to feel this way?
Once you have decided to change there is lots of ways to go about it.
I hope you feel better!