[Elana05]

You know when you don't want to get out of bed? I feel SO tired this morning. I am hoping it won't follow me throughout the day. Sometimes I feel like tiredness and depression add up to a monster that attaches itself firmly to my leg. I want to move, but I can hardly do it. Why am I so exhausted?? I feel like my head is in a fog and I don't really care about anything. I guess I will try to do some drawing. Or maybe get out to look at the sun. Last night I watched an interesting program describing Einstein's famous equation relating mass and energy. I have to admit, that was interesting. Now I think of it every time I look at the sun.

[claygenius]

It's amazing what the chemistry of depression can do to our bodies. Are you getting help for your depression? Therapy or meds? I hope the day goes better then the start did Hang in there

When last did you have your meds checked? Might help to see if they need adjustment of a different one.

[Elana05]

Thanks for your responses... Actually I'm not taking meds right now. The therapy 1x a week is helping although I wish it were 2x again (had to cut back due to $ - well really that's complicated; had to cut back because I am so sick of taking $ from my family who doesn't quite understand what depression is). I am on these antibiotics and I keep thinking that if I can treat whatever physical problem I have (Lyme disease? Chronic fatigue?) then the depression will go away. Ugh. I know on some level that it's all connected and that depression is also a physical problem but I have a hard time understanding that applied to myself. I keep thinking I don't need meds but it's probably not true. I just had such a bad experience with them (I tried celexa and zoloft, both made me exhausted during the day and anxious at night). Guess I should go back to the drawing board (ie the pdoc).