[sherry3629]

Hi, I am new here. I really wanted to find those who can identify with how I feel and what I am going through. My family does not understand. They simply just dont get it. I tell them it is a medical conditon.. they just look as if they want to tell me NO it is not..but they say nothing because they know that I will fight back on the issue.

I applied for disablilty on panic disorder, when ssi sent me for an evaluation with a physciartrics she diagnosed me with major deppression and phobia to leave home.

I want to list some of my symptom and just want someone to tell me if they can identify. I am tired of feeling alone. so let me list "some" of the things I go though.

I rather sleep than do anything else, I find myself hiding that fact that I sleep so much or excues as I am sick or have a headache or my medication makes me sleepy. I sleep all day. When I am not asleep I wish that I was.

I often wake up with knots in my stomach, nervous.. I am sure that somthing bad will happen through the day.

I often do not even feel like doing my hair and makeup,

I feel SO much better at night after the world is not so busy, no phone calls to worry about, no going out for erronds, just me and the tv.

I sometime just cry for a few days.. I look at even the good things in life such as my kids and get worried that what if somthing happens to them. I remember when they were babies and wonder where time went.

I do not like to run erronds, I make a list and then cross out what I can put off untill later in the week.. it is to the point I put off what I can do till later in the month.

The only time I am really happy is with my kids, we joke, we sing, laugh, do normal things around the house.

I feel like a loser when compared to other people.

I have issues from childhood.. they flashback to me and bring tears to my eyes.

I know that this maybe a long post.. but I know that I have had panic attacks for years, I recently 2 years ago developed a seizure disorder, and a sleep disorder. I knew I get a little blue now and then but it has escalated out of control.. good and bad days.. more bad. I have to force myself to participate in life.

When I went to the dr they sent me to for ssi/disability I was amazed that she told me major depression and that I need help. She told me that my family will not help me, not even to discuss with them that it makes it worse.. I was crying throught the whole thing..

my question is also... how can a person get help . how can feelings way deep in my mind and soul be erased. I am on zoloft, xananx, lamictal and the best one is xanax.. it takes my worries away for the time being. 2 mg x 3 a day.. high dosage.

can anyone identify with any of these symptoms. thank you in advance for any support. sorry for the mispellings.

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, Sherry3629!

The short answer is...

• I can relate to some of your symptoms;
• we can collectively relate to all of your symptoms;
• at least of few of us can individually relate to your specific symptom set.

PsychCentral is a big place. Browse the forums. Also, make sure your own profile is complete and you can use the "find others like me" function, which is based on your "primary concern":

• Navigate to your profile page where you see visitor messages, about me, statistics, friends, contact info.
• Select "My Profile" above your name at the far left of the page.
• Scroll down to the bottom of "Your Control Panel" at the far left of the page.
• There you'll find -
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[1flagwriter]

Great advice, Rohag!!!

I just want to ask what meds are you on? Also, I would politely suggest printing your original post and taking it to your next docs appt.

I hope you feel better soon, and we are here when/if you need to chat!!!!

[callingforthesun]

Originally Posted by sherry3629

Hi, I am new here. I really wanted to find those who can identify with how I feel and what I am going through. My family does not understand. They simply just dont get it. I tell them it is a medical conditon.. they just look as if they want to tell me NO it is not..but they say nothing because they know that I will fight back on the issue.

I applied for disablilty on panic disorder, when ssi sent me for an evaluation with a physciartrics she diagnosed me with major deppression and phobia to leave home.

I want to list some of my symptom and just want someone to tell me if they can identify. I am tired of feeling alone. so let me list "some" of the things I go though.

I rather sleep than do anything else, I find myself hiding that fact that I sleep so much or excues as I am sick or have a headache or my medication makes me sleepy. I sleep all day. When I am not asleep I wish that I was.

I often wake up with knots in my stomach, nervous.. I am sure that somthing bad will happen through the day.

I often do not even feel like doing my hair and makeup,

I feel SO much better at night after the world is not so busy, no phone calls to worry about, no going out for erronds, just me and the tv.

I sometime just cry for a few days.. I look at even the good things in life such as my kids and get worried that what if somthing happens to them. I remember when they were babies and wonder where time went.

I do not like to run erronds, I make a list and then cross out what I can put off untill later in the week.. it is to the point I put off what I can do till later in the month.

The only time I am really happy is with my kids, we joke, we sing, laugh, do normal things around the house.

I feel like a loser when compared to other people.

I have issues from childhood.. they flashback to me and bring tears to my eyes.

I know that this maybe a long post.. but I know that I have had panic attacks for years, I recently 2 years ago developed a seizure disorder, and a sleep disorder. I knew I get a little blue now and then but it has escalated out of control.. good and bad days.. more bad. I have to force myself to participate in life.

When I went to the dr they sent me to for ssi/disability I was amazed that she told me major depression and that I need help. She told me that my family will not help me, not even to discuss with them that it makes it worse.. I was crying throught the whole thing..

my question is also... how can a person get help . how can feelings way deep in my mind and soul be erased. I am on zoloft, xananx, lamictal and the best one is xanax.. it takes my worries away for the time being. 2 mg x 3 a day.. high dosage.

can anyone identify with any of these symptoms. thank you in advance for any support. sorry for the mispellings.

hi,
i also put things off because i don`t really like to go out in public. i can fake that i`m "normal" when i`m out but most of the time i just feel awkward in my own skin. i also did a lot of sleeping (but not recently cause i stopped nortriptylene cold turkey & i can`t really sleep).
i also take lamictal (600mg/day) so i don`t constantly have the urges (or follow through with them) to self-injure... and xanax, yes, but only as a PRN during panic episodes and when i launch into a mood swing & want to throw things, hit things and hurt myself. it takes a lot of soul-searching. it`s not fun, but it helps you learn more about yourself & why you think/behave like you do. writing in a journal helps, and also charting your moods. i can`t really say it gets easier (for us lifers, anyway) but the more you learn about yourself, the better. and there are always people out there that "get it," you just have to search for them.