[Overcastbutclearing]

Just wanted to touch base here. I was doing well there for a bit. But last Friday night a fire broke out in the apartment next to us and in turn destroyed 12 apartments...ours being one of the twelve. We suffered smoke and water damage. Everything is ruined. We were able to save some pictures and some other personal items...but for the most it is all ruined.
Now, for those who know me here I am classic BPD. I see everything in black or white. Can you tell how I am viewing my life right about now?
This is how it seems to go for me....right when I think I can get back to some good mental health some thing happens in way of major situation and throws me right back down to the pits of Hell.
I feel like this is a blatant sign for me to exit. But, I am trying to work through this grief with my T and I am struggling but I am still here.
I am at work this morning just to get away from it all.
But, I am sad, angry, overwhelmed, tired, and have lost my home.
I am staying safe for the moment. But, I feel like at any moment I could have a total break down. Perhaps all of the shock has worn off and that is what is keeping me going.
This is just awful. And I keep asking "Why?"

[h0kie]

I'm very sorry this has happened to you.

I can't imagine the range of emotions you are feeling (even though you listed a few). That being said, I hope somewhere down inside of you that you feel a little lucky? You are safe and those you love are safe. Material things can be replaced. A life cannot. This too shall pass. I'm also glad you have a T to help you through this rough patch.

Good luck getting things straightened out. I am sure everyone here will be glad to offer support and to listen. I'm glad you are ok.

((((((((((Susan))))))))))

[complic8d]

((((((sj))))) I always want to know the "why"also. Maybe there is no answer? Bad things just happen?
I feel so bad for you right now, you are a great person, and it isn't "fair". Please work through this using whatever resources you have, especially your T. He can help you through it. Take care and be safe. Love ya. HUGS!

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(((((((((((((sjo)))))))))))))))))

Hang in there. Keep posting, we're here to listen.

[Parker10]

I am so sorry !!!! I am so very thankful that you were not hurt tho! Try and focus on the fact that you and yours were not hurt ! Like already said, material things can be replaced ! I am so glad you were able to save some pictures, and they will give you pleasure when you look at them in the future - when all else has been taken care of. Please please keep yourself safe, let your T work with you as much as possible, and know that we are all here for you ! TC Susan !!!!

[jmo531]

(((((((((((SJ)))))))))))

[Myzen]

Hi sj,

I'm thinking that the thing that really matters is your mood. If you can hold your mood together, then you can get through anything. That's how it's always been for me, just holding on to that mood. It's sounds so easy, and yet it's so hard for us.

Good thoughts. M