[Miss_A]

I am sorry for all the trouble I've caused here.
I am sorry for not listen to the words enough.
I am sorry for trying to be me.
I am sorry for giving up.
I am sorry for my internet addiction that gets in the way.
I am sorry for trying to be happy and postive sometimes.
I am sorry for looking up to someone older than me.
I am sorry for complaning over nothing.
I am sorry for not belonging here.
I am sorry for the things I've said and didn't mean.
I am sorry for holding on for even longer because of this site.
I am sorry for making no sense of everything.
I am sorry for writting triggering stuff.
I am sorry for being so dumb at times.
I am sorry for that I waste your time.
I am sorry that I'm saying sorry too many times.
and last but not least... I am sorry for being here.
Sincerely Ayesha.

(p.s: Please erase me...)

[cat_eye]

excuse me? Your are such a major person at psychcentral! A few of your posts have been geared to help people, and you DEFINITELY aren't dumb. We love you very much, and PLEASE take care of yourself. PM me if you want to talk. I'm sorry you are feeling crappy. Here are some parting hugs:

((((((((((((((((((((((((((Miss_A))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

-Carolyn.

[jmo531]

Miss A,

Where do I start. I dont want to come off sounding like I am against you because I am not.

I remember what it is like to be 14. Sometimes I can remember like it was yesterday, other days it seems like a million years ago. In my life experience, I have learned that actions speak louder then words. You can apologize to us all you want but not changing your behavior will make the apologies meaningless.

I agree with Carolyn, I think you add alot to this forum. You are young, I am always interested the hear your points of view because I have a 14 year old daughter and often can not figure out what goes on in her head. So, at times, your posts help me understand.

Sometimes I think you try to hard. I know that you feel you have something to prove but you dont. You do not have to pretend your happy when your not. Be yourself. I have more I want to say but cant really think of the right words to say.

All I know is, I like you Miss A. Just remember, actions speak louder then words. Take care.

[Miss_A]

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What a lovely saying you said. That will stick in my mind forever now. actions speak louder then words, Actions speak louder then Words, <font color="red">ACTIONS[/colour] speak louder then <font color="blue">words.[/colour]

I don't understand what's wrong with my behavior? I'm not a bad person, am I...?

Maybe my personailty stinks of raw emotions!

Aww plop, you know you're right.

[wisewoman]

Miss A, you are a wonderful honest sincere person and I am sorry if you are feeling hurt. There is a lot of drama in life and more so in a teen's life. You go ahead and express yourself and remember to always be kind and caring no matter what. You have done nothing but be honest.

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

I don't know about any of that stuff all I know is..so far I like you

of course you are not a bad person.......you are a young woman with some difficult issues but hey.....we've all got some!....in some ways i envy you..oh to be 14 again and have such a wonderful expanse of life ahead!....hang in there sweetie........life can be wonderful!

[amdx64]

miss_a or Ayesha which ever you perfer ..

Heres something also to add to the others, you ever heard the glass is half full or half empty. This means which type of person are you are the you the one who says half full or half empty.

The reason im saying this is you dont know it but you see yourself opposite of what others do. You see the glass half empty but we see the glass half full. Im not saying ether one is right or wrong im just saying theres different viewpoints and you have a different viewpoint.

I personally like to see your posts .. many of your posts have sheded ideas and thoughts into things many of us adults have forgotten you have brought us back .. yes you are young but you are smart and want to wrench away this youth to be stable and be able to not feel so confused.

Just do me a big favor be yourself who you reaaly are not Kurt or anyone else.. this is what I and the other members want .. we want you. Just cause your younger doesnt mean we all cant talk and have a cybercoffee or cup of tea or even a coke. Your a person and we do care about how you feel, so show us you even if you think your this and that .. this is who we want not .. kurt or someone else.

[Miss_A]

<font color="#000088">Ok, I'll start being myself again. The thing is others around me can see who I am, but I can't. I also relate to others more then me if that makes any sense. Still no I'm not kurt lol, he's just a guy. One thing can I have the number of posts taken away, I don't think I desevre them. Over 1000 is too much for the time I've been here. Also I'm limiting my posts and forcing myself not to start a trigger to others.

[amdx64]

posts dont mean anything .. theres just numbers .. i could care less if theres 1 or 1000000000 i treat all the same. In your case Miss_A .. if your a sweats and t shirt type or shorts and t shirt type or jammies .. be that person .. let your hair down .. comes here to help and be helped .. we all are friends .. it doesnt matter if your 12 or 75 ... we are all friends and family to each other.

let us see who miss_a is .. what does she do besides school? What are her hobbies? How does your "issues" effect you and what could you do yourself to improve things etc..

[(JD)]

in that numbers don't mean a thing, especially if half of what is said is incoherent, it's the thought that counts! TC

[Myzen]

Hi folks,

I'd like to add that I see Psych Central as a place where people who are having some psychological and/or emotional problems can come without feeling afraid. It seems reasonable from this that some of us will show some variations in the way we post, fitting with our mood changes.

I've seen that happening with a few of us over time, including me, as hard as I try to be cool and calm.

It looks to me like your posts are genuine, Ayesha, in that they seem to reflect how you feel at different times. sometimes up, and sometimes down. I've been there, I think most of us have.

Cheers, M