[brephi]

I am so stupid. Last year I had arranged to see a T. I had appointments for about 2 months and kept the first 6. Everything was OK as long as I could talk about what I wanted to talk about (PROBLEMS WITH SISTERS AND BROTHERS). When the T starting asking questions about me. I froze up. I can't explain why I did this. I can talk about everyone else, but myself. No wonder I am depressed. I am just so stupid and sometimes I hate myself for not being able to really talk about myself. Maybe I don't have anything good to say about myself. I don't know. All I know is that I AM SO STUPID AND WHEN I HAD AN OPPORTUNITY TO GET HELP -- I JUST COULDN'T CONTINUE with the T appointments.

[venusss]

No. you are not stupid. Many people have problems to talk about themselves.

But you are right that it may be one of the reasons why you are depressed. A therapist can help you to understand those feelings and express them... but of course it does not happen straight away...

Can't you call the therapist and re-arrange appointments? You can start of by telling him this... that you have problem talking about yourself...

why do you feel this way? You feel unimportant or don't like yourself or do you feel vulnerable when "exposed"?

[Rohag]

Hi, Brephi!

Running into a wall you don't know is there is not stupid. Continuing to run into a wall you know is there is stupid -- or just plain strange.

Though incomplete, that experience with the T taught you something valuable: trying to talk about yourself paralyzes you. With the T you were able to clear off the overlying soil and reach bedrock. Now, on your own or when the opportunity presents itself again, you don't have to start from square one. You know where the rock is.

You've found a worthy question to explore -- "Why can't I talk about myself?" I hope you can find many ways to examine that question.

[Elysium]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Hi, Brephi!

Running into a wall you don't know is there is not stupid. Continuing to run into a wall you know is there is stupid -- or just plain strange.

Though incomplete, that experience with the T taught you something valuable: trying to talk about yourself paralyzes you. With the T you were able to clear off the overlying soil and reach bedrock. Now, on your own or when the opportunity presents itself again, you don't have to start from square one. You know where the rock is.

You've found a worthy question to explore -- "Why can't I talk about myself?" I hope you can find many ways to examine that question.

I completely agree...in fact, I couldn't have said it better.

You're not stupid. You did learn something about yourself. That makes that time with T invaluable. A lot of us have similar issues talking about ourselves. I know I worry a lot that if I keep talking about me then two things will happen...1) T will get tired of hearing about me and dump me, and 2) I will discover some dark secret that I don't want to know.

I've learned though that T will not dump me and that if there is a dark secret to be found, who better to find it with than a good T.

Take care

[Skully]

No, you are not stupid. It is often hard to talk about yourself because it is so personal and it requires to you drop the walls of defense you have built around you. That's true for me at least. It is so hard to let someone in to see the real you.

Hello, brephi. Can you remember the questions the therapist asked you? If you can, perhaps you can write out the responses you would have given. Please consider giving therapy another chance. Tell the therapist straight away you have trouble talking about yourself. Ask him or her to help you.

Good luck.

[SophiaG]

I am afraid to talk about myself because I fear judgement. Maybe this may be a reason why you were afraid to talk?

[Naturefreak]

(((brephi))))
You are not alone. Don't be so hard on yourself.