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Too many walls built up inside of me to get to the deep rooted bs in my mind. Too many hurts. Too many old tapes that run through my mind and tell me over and over what a piece of garbage I am. It doesn't matter how far I have come or how well I am doing now...instead...it just keeps playing in my mind over and over what a horrible, ugly, sinner I am. No one should love such a soul! It is so damaged.
If these walls could speak...if they could open up just once and touch down deep...they would tell of how the inner child in me is frightened and scared. And it isn't about being an adult who seemingly looks together and has things going for her...NO. If these walls could speak...they would tell a tale of sadness. They would cry out for love and affection. They would seek parental love. Time line is still ticking. And if these walls really could speak....they would ask to be sheltered just for a little while till the storm passes. |
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I think I can relate to what you are saying here. I know there's a lonely little girl inside me, behind many many layers of apparent "competence". There's lots of grief and sorrow behind those walls.
My lonely young self says hello to yours. You're not alone. gg
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Really hating myself this afternoon.
Wishing I could just fly away. Anybody have a bulldozer to help knock some of these walls down? They literally are killing me.... |
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I don't have a bulldozer buy I have two hands.
I'll help you, even in we have to do it brick by brick by brick. Cuz all in all it's just another brick in the wall... ![]() Petunia |
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my little child feels your pain she is feeling it too...the achiness of wanting a mothers arms around you and knowing that your mother accepts you and acknowledges that she is your mother....my little child aches everyday and please know your not alone....I too have my walls and I want them down so bad...but my T says one brick at a time...it cannot be rushed....UGH I am very impatient....take care ![]() ![]() ![]()
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((((((((( sj ))))))))))))
thinking of u
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