Yesterday I got a bill for $932.00 for electricity, my normal bills for this are around $300-$500. I nearly had a heart attack when I opened the envelope. I have spoken to the company and they say it is correct but I cannot see how as there is only me here and has been for the last three years, no other bills have been that high before. That was the start of my stress. it has just escalated since then. Now I am at the point of screaming and crying, I dont know where to turn I cant do this anymore, I work hard and have nothing to show for it living in this dump with nothing or noone to give me any encouragement to continue this struggle every day or night in my case (Im a night shift worker) I cant wait to see my counsellor again, I truly wish I can let all this out to her, usually I am the strong silent type but I really need to scream and cry. well maybe NOT scream there. Right now Im going to take a couple of pain pills because I hurt all over and go for a rest before I have to work again tonight. What am I going to do I cant pay this bill. Thats more than I earn in a fortnight. Why do I always have to struggle with every damn thing. Life is never just manageable. Not for me anyway.
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