[jazper]

Today I feel let down and frustrated and sad and blank all at once.
Let down by my own life, my body, and my spirit.
Frustrated by everything and everyone in my life, all who talk a good game but when the chips are down no one is there for me.
Sad because I give my all for everyone who asks it of me.
And last but not least Blank. Because unless I think of ways to end this stupid worthless existence there is nothing for me. Why do I have to keep going? What is it that I am supposed to achieve? When is enough enough? How much do I have to endure???????.
I hate this world only because it seems to hate me.
All around me is death. I hold people when they die, I pray with them I allay as much of their fear as I can I believe there is a better place and I want to go there, Why does no one allay my fear or help me or hold me when I am desperate for someone to care?
Yep I feel let down by life and the human race. But most of all BY ME for not having the guts to do anything I can about it.

[feary]

You should think high of yourself and love yourself and your life because of the comfort you provide for others even in the midst of your own suffering. That is an achievement not many can do.

[Caramel]

Originally Posted by jazper

Today I feel let down and frustrated and sad and blank all at once.
Let down by my own life, my body, and my spirit.
Frustrated by everything and everyone in my life, all who talk a good game but when the chips are down no one is there for me.
Sad because I give my all for everyone who asks it of me.
And last but not least Blank. Because unless I think of ways to end this stupid worthless existence there is nothing for me. Why do I have to keep going? What is it that I am supposed to achieve? When is enough enough? How much do I have to endure???????.
I hate this world only because it seems to hate me.
All around me is death. I hold people when they die, I pray with them I allay as much of their fear as I can I believe there is a better place and I want to go there, Why does no one allay my fear or help me or hold me when I am desperate for someone to care?
Yep I feel let down by life and the human race. But most of all BY ME for not having the guts to do anything I can about it.

Hi jazper,

I am so sorry you are feeling miserable. You have experienced a lot of loss in your lifetime.

Have you been evaluated by a psychiatrist and received treatment for depression? Dealing with psychiatric medications isn't easy, but they are necessary for me to function. I hope you will be able to find help!

Caramel