Lost in the Twilight Zone

I am really nerves about Monday. Suppose to be going to look for a job. I don't know if it is a good idea. I haven't worked in twelve years and I am not on any depression drugs yet. I feel already hopeless. I don't see my T till thursday. school for my kid starts tomorrow. I can't seem to get my husband to undersatnd that i need him there for support. I guess he feels I am to dependent and weak if he goes. So he makes excuses not to go. What if I have a breakdown. Do I tell them I have depression? If I don't will they fire me if they find out or for the fact I have to take off for all my meetings with my T? I hate having no answers and wondering if it is worth the pain and embarrassment of my on going illness. Is there a place I can go for some to help me get back into the work force. I wish I had a college degree to back me up. i would love to go to go to college and get a degree. But I can't afford it. Not even loans. How do I deal with all this???

I don't blame you. I'd be terrified.

Realistically, given your illness and family responsibilities, how much can you handle? Is there a way for you to ease back into work -- volunteering, part-time, etc.? What about focusing on your interests (the ones you mention in your profile)?

Wishing you some one encouraging thing this week!