[Miss Laura]

Back in with my old friend again Ms Depression... She wont leave me alone

I was at my GP's today and I am awaiting an app from Psychiatry. I SI the other night and feel 1 million times better telling my GP. I thought she would be angry and or disappointed in me but she wasn't she was really nice to me. I have to go back in 2 weeks or if I am feeling really bad then less than the 2 weeks.

She asked me what I did etc. She gave me more techniques to help NOT doing SI. I don't know why I do it though. I told 1 of my friends and she said she was not angry at me she was just disappointed in me that it had to go that far. I feel really embarrassed and silly now.

Why can't I just not do things like that??

Miss Laura,

Please try not to feel guilty about SI. We all have our slip-ups now and again, and it was really good of you to go see your GP, and soon your psychiatrist.

I hope you don't feel these urges to SI, but if you do, I hope you'll use the techniques that were given to you. Take care.

[Miss Laura]

Thanks Melissa,

I am still awaiting my app coming through which I think is frustrating me more. I feel really angry I SI and I am determined NOT to do it again. I have a bump on my forehead from an incident ooopsss!!! Its sore too. So its like the punishment afterwards in some respects.

Hope your doing ok??!!

xx

[lorna]

Dear Miss Laura,
I agree that guilt doesn't make us feel any better. I think you have a very nice doc who did her job and is looking out for your needs. It remains important to surround yourself with good people, fun activities and proper supports. I hope you get your apt soon, i know waitin isn't easy.

[Miss Laura]

Thank U Lorna,

Ye my doc is good. I really like her. She is 1 of the 2 gp's I see I alternate between the 2 when they are on hols etc.

Ye waiting is the worst and hardest part to begin with

Thanks again

xx