[Inky]

I'm so hungry I'm dizzy. The rule of the house seems to be 'don't eat', so I don't. I'm living on coffee and, when I get desperate, the occasional Pop Tart.

You'd think it wouldn't be this bad, but the one time I decided to say screw it and get a bowl of cereal my father freaked out, pitched a major fit and ran out to buy another bag to replace the one bowl I took, and I got speeches from my mother for a week about how when she was in someone else's house, she never dared to eat anything, and about how terrible it was that my father had to spend money on something we didn't absolutely need.

Well... let's think about this... it's my money in the first place, which I put entirely under their control to keep us all from becoming homeless, so...

But nevermind. Nevermind.

In a little while, supposing it doesn't fall through, they'll be bringing the RV down here. Father Dearest already took it upon himself to rent a lot, which I thought was kind of monumentally stupid because we don't know how long it will be before the thing is here so we could waste months of rent on a place we don't even know we're going to end up in.

So this starving single working mother is about to live in an RV, and after tallying up the bills we'll be paying, it's no better than the house payments we couldn't make before.

My little sister is moving to another state to live with a friend and her parents, and they're going to get her a GED and a part-time job.

She's escaping.

So now I can't move into those apartments right near work, because I have no transportation and she was the only one I would have trusted to watch my daughter while I'm out.

So I'm stuck.

And I care so little these days that all I'm doing is getting up and going to work and coming home and waiting to die, and I guess the whole not eating thing will probably speed that up a little but I was hoping to at least find a less painful way to go.

In all of this my only comfort is that my daughter is well taken care of.

She's the only one (except maybe for my parents, who go out and get food while I'm at work).

I think I'm going to go back to bed now.

[Fuzzybear]

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[BashfullOne]

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