[Therapyconfusion]

Hey all. I have an appointment set for Monday. I feel like i need to tell her all my quirks with therapy. Such as obsessing over her and thinking shes better than me and being afraid to continue to act depressed because she will get sick of listening to me. A few moths back I was feeling really suicidal and I called her to tell I wasnt doing well. Plus these were feelings I havent had since high school. I felt dumb for calling her anyway. But it was hard for me to because Im so afraid of rejection. Anyway she never called me back. Which just made me feel like you cant depend on therapist. They must get sick of all this and become numb to it. I went to my Pdoc instead like a month after this he doesnt make me feel better just changes my drugs. Then the last time I went in I was like Im great and she was happy for me. But I just did it so she wouldnt get sick of me. I did some EMDR work with her and had some pretty intense sessions. I just cant believe therapists really give a **** about you. They have their own life and friends. Also this will be our last sessions before she has a baby. I feel like I should be going weekly but I think they think I dont need that much. so how should I handle these things and what should I do in ther meantime. Should I go to smeone else while shes on maternity leave. If I tell her all this it will take the whole hour and then shes gone for three months. Thanks for reading everyone.

[MiddleAgedMan]

I really identify with what you're saying about the patient/therapist relationship as I've felt very similar things in the past. Have you thought about sending your therapist a letter outlining what you've told us, in advance of your session, so that you can spend the session discussing it?

[Rohag]

Hi, Therapyconfusion! Among other things, this caught my attention:

Originally Posted by Therapyconfusion

...being afraid to continue to act depressed because she will get sick of listening to me.

For therapy to work, the therapist should see the client as they are, not as the therapist hopes they are and not as the client thinks the therapist would like to see them.

As a professional, your therapist (and clinic) is paid to care for you. She is not an authority figure to be pleased. If something is getting in the way of her forming an accurate picture of how you're really doing, tell her. That is, do your best to tell her. After all, you are in distress and intimidation is part of that; for you (for me!) telling her is not an easy thing to do. Even knowing "she can handle it as a professional" doesn't make it easier for you to do.

Could you go into your session with a print-out of your above post?

Wishing you good outcomes!

[MiddleAgedMan]

Originally Posted by Therapyconfusion

Hey all. I have an appointment set for Monday. .

How did the session go? Were you able to share with the therapist how you were feeling?
Hope you're well