[maroda09]

Thanks for all the encouragement and support. This morning I was supposed to go to the doctors. It was my first appt with my new primary care phyisican and I was planning on addressing my depression. It is kind of a big rigaramore to get to the doctors office via public transportation. First my bus was late, sending me into a panic about how to get to the appt on time. As I was frantically searching for a number to call the bus came.

I got on, drenched with sweat and got off at the dr office with some time to spare. I went to the bathroom to freshen up.

I get into the office and submit my new patient paperwork. Then the receptionists call me aside and tell me that my dr is tending to an emergency situation and my appt is now cancelled. Apparently there was a bad accident at the dr parking garage.

So I have no choice but to turn around and wait in the hot sun forever for the hourly bus that takes me the hour and a half commute to work. My appt is rescheduled for first thing tomorrow.

I managed to keep a steady voice as I accepted the office apologies but I did let them know gently what a big production it is for me to get there and get to work.

So then I broke down. I put on my sunglasses and started sobbing. I now had to wait in the hot sun for a bus for 45 min and I was starving because I was fasting to get blood work done. At work my productivity is suffering because I am un motivated and exhausted due to my depression. I am a fairly new employee and I can't take a vacation day or a sick day for another month and a half.

I called my mom to vent about the situation. She was incredibly understanding. She kindly suggested I tell my dr how the cancelation affected me emotionally to give clarity to my emotional and mental issues I need to address. That prompted another crying fest and this time it was on the bus.

I am not mad at my doctor for the situation...it wasn't her fault....I am just more frusterated with myself that I can't just bounce back from the little things.

[SophiaG]

You are depressed, it follows then that you wont be able to bounce back from little things because you're already struggling with getting through daily routines.

Don't give up on getting treatment.

[sundog]

I'm really sorry that happened. I don't think it's a little thing at all. I think it's a big thing. This appointment is really important for you and, as you say, getting to the appointment involved a lot of stress. To get there and then be told it's canceled is definitely a big deal. Plus you were really hungry and that often makes us more vulnerable emotionally. I completely understand why you are upset. I really like your Mom's suggestion about being honest with your doctor about how the cancellation effected you. And it's good you told the office receptionist that too.

I hope you can be gentle and kind to yourself and not beat yourself up! You have every right to be upset about this stressful situation! I hope everything goes well for your appointment on Thursday.

[Travelinglady]

Definitely I would have been stressed out, too! But you actually got through it and are here to "tell the tale." At least maybe next time will be easier by comparison, since you have a better idea of what to expect. Congratulations! Now you have your appointment re-scheduled. You're definitely on the right track. It's frustrating that you were "de-railed" the first time, and your feelings were certainly justified.

[Naturefreak]

(((maroda09)))
I hope you feel better soon