I Wish I Was Gone

I wish I was gone from this hell hole we call earth. Sure there are moments , but very few. I know many of you will be concerned and I do appreciate your concern and kindness. But life sucks , big time.
Why should anyone have to suffer through this bulls**t ? Things will get better , sure , and pigs can fly. There are fortunate people and unfortunate people , and I'm not one of the fortunate ones. So tell me to be grateful for what I have , to have faith and be hopeful. I gave that a long , tiring go and nothing is ever going to change. I have a roof over my head , I have food ....... big F***ING deal , so do criminals. I just hate my life and there's only one way out , but I haven't got the guts to do it.

(((((((((((((Nature)))))))))))))) I wish I could say something that would help. I'm so sorry you feel this bad. I hope so much that things will improve for you. I'm sending you tons of hugs ((((((((((Nature)))))))))))

I wish there was something I could say to make it better, to make it all go away.. Though I am in the same position at times that you are. I know that it's hard to believe things will get better, it's hard for me too. The few times I felt like things were FINALLY looking up, something pushed me right back onto the floor. So I understand completely. I won't tell you it's going to get better, because it hasn't for me yet, but all I CAN tell you is to please stay strong. For you, and for us. All we here have is each other, and the few others outside of her that actually give a rat's *****. So stay strong for us, so we can stay strong for you, and we can all get through life's hell together..

You know, it sucks that when you feel this way, and you really dont want to kill yourself but you dont feel like you have any options left, and all you really want is someone to help you enjoy life again, you go out and seek help, and most of the help you get is basically on par with someone going "oh, if you're going to die anyway, can I take your wallet?" and some of the real good ones will be like, "if I give you pills and send you back to work like a zombie can I rape your wallet forever? Beats dying right?"

Thats all it is in not so many words.

Well F that in the ***, bro. That's why you're here, with us, with the people who really give a crap. Listen, it may seem like these good moments are short and far between, and when they happen they are gone for good, but there is a point. When you have a good experience it builds your personality. Enough of those and you are a happy excited person, dude! And the great thing is, you can choose to create identity meaning with any moment you like, and disassociate yourself from the rest! Hang in there and you'll realize that you had this happen to you for a reason. So that you can finally understand what makes you tick and how to be a real person! Dont even settle for how you were before the **** hit the fan, you can be more, better than you have been. Just hang in there and do the life homework. Dont make your reality pointless, we all have to step into your shoes in the long run, and I want it to be a good pair. Come on, none of us are out to get eachother, we are of the mindset that everyone should be happy, its your right as someone who says "I am."!

Lets not dwell to much in questions of "to be" or "not to be", I guarantee you that many people much smarter than you or I have thought the same thing and realized that "not to be" doesn't bring much to the table. Lets take the cowards way out and just let it happen when it does. Then you can have the best of both worlds.

I don't know if the issue is guts, my friend. I used to assume I was a coward for the same reason. perhaps you arenot, but another time. HUGGGGSSSSS and think of that now. It's a bad time of the night for us folks where you are. Mind if I sit and wait it out for a bit, even if you can't see me there?.

I know how you feel my friend, but that's not the way out. I am hoping that someday by persevering through all this crap that I will learn something that will have made it all understandable....In my case, learning how to risk loving and caring about people which has been so hard for me to do before. Be gentle with yourself, and hang in there Chris.

It sucks to feel this way. I understand naturefreak because i feel the same way. I don't even know what to say to you because i am in the same state, feeling hopeless like there is no other way. However in my case, i think that i'll end up just alive and suffering and then i'll be in an even worse position. People say that if its not your time you won't go anywhere. Then I think of how it will affect people and that keeps me from doing anything. So I don't know if thats cowardly or not, maybe so but here I am still here. All I can say is i hate to hear that you are feeling so down and hopeless and that i understand and you can vent here or you can vent to me also. I just pray things get better for the both of us and anyone else feeling this miserable.

Anjelmarie

Well it definitely does suck, but I'm sure all of us have experienced that at some point. But it'll pass as you know full well. Everything does. Neither the ups nor the downs last. We have to maintain a balance, but even the balance won't last! But come on! Wouldn't it have been dead boring if it was all calm and peace? I think it would. You appreciate the happy times more if you've had times like these. I don't know; maybe it's all empty talk, what I'm saying. But I really believe in it. Hopefully, things will get better for you and you'll be able to see the world in a different light. And as for your comment about fortunate people and unfortunate people, the fortunate ones may not be as fortunate as you think! Everybody has their own problems. Some bigger, some smaller. Just don't give up. Hang in there and remember that there are people who care.

Oh my...your statements say exactly what i thought in past and sometimes in present, however im still around. i got no reason why, something is keeping me here. even though i just want to go "home"

I've been through it too. I understand.

its great that u write here what u r feeling it shows that u want to get better. well i am 100% with what 11pm wrote.its tough but u must do the work n man is it tough but the reward is greater. u r worth it, u r strong and u r valued. u r not alone !!!

(((((( Naturefreak ))))))

It takes more guts to face life head on than to just be done with it. Words are easy to say, I know, but just hang in there. I can't imagine how you must feel to be thinking these things it must be really hard for you, but you are tough for still standing (in a manner of speaking).

I wish I had some good news for the way you feel, but I don't cause I feel the say way. I hate this crappy life most days. I don't understand why I was one of the "chosen" to have this disease. I am 52 and have had problems since I was a young teen. I kept hoping it would get better, but it did not and it never will. I either have tlo deal with it or die.

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