[brokengirl001]

I am 19 years old and have been diagnosed with major depression, bipolar disorder. Each day is a struggle for me and i found out that my boyfriend of 4 years is seeing another girl. it hurts so much inside. i believe i am or never was good enough for him, and that he doesn't love me anymore because of my disorders. i don't want to get out of bed some days and other days i just want it all to end. I don't even have anyone i can talk to anymore because i feel like no one understands. these past 9 months have been the hardest months of my life because i am so lost and hurt and just about to give it all up. I hope i can talk to someone that understands what i am going through.

[gingeramber]

Your worth does not rest on this guy's shoulders. You determine your worth. He could have been man enough to not betray your trust, and to tell you that this is a situation he could not handle, but he didn't. That says a lot more about him then it does you. So though I know it's hard, put that situation aside. It has nothing to do with you and you don't need to waste any more time on that guy. Don't be someone's option.
As for your disorders, I understand. I have severe depression from trauma that I have never dealt with. You can be a productive human being, regardless. You have to find the will. I stongly suggest getting B12 supplements on top of any recommended prescriptions. This has helped me immensely.
Best wishes

[brokengirl001]

Thank you, that's very true, i believed and trusted him more than anyone else and i guess thats the part that hurts the most, is realizing that he lied to me and now i feel like i will never trust anyonee

[cherrygash321]

hi brokengirl. well he doesn't sound like a very standup or mature guy if he was seeing someone else on the side. sorry that he had to be that way and hurt you. don't let your mind let you believe you're not good enough for him or it must have been something you did or about your illness that did it in. He made the decision to lie and purposefully hurt you. No one deserves that. I hope you see this.
I know how it feels to be hurt by relationships and then not feel like you can trust ever again. All I can say is music therapy, friends/support, and good sleep always helps. Hope you feel better.

[brokengirl001]

Thank you Cherry you're support is definitely helping me right now. Trying to see that i do deserve better...

[Fresia]

He clearly does not deserve you, your relationship, or your tears. Your illness has nothing do with it, as these things can happen with or without it being in one's life unfortunately. This is HIS issue, not yours. You are worth SO much more than your relationship and how he sees you, your worth comes from within you. I can tell by your post how strong you are, keep up your courage and know that this will pass. It does not change the hurt that comes with such a betrayal and I truly understand this. So do take extra special care of yourself during this time.

It is easy to feel alone when struggling with major depression and BP, but you are not. So glad you posted. Also a therapist, counselor, and/or pdoc can be very helpful and understanding as well, even if they are not going through it themselves. They can help.

Hang in there in the meantime. Sending good wishes your way.

[brokengirl001]

Thank you for posting back with great advice