[jmo531]

want to scream at the top of your lungs.................................. I hate this f***ing world.

[wi_fighter]

Once in a while. I just find a pillow and stuff my face in it and scream as loud and long as I need to. My cats look at me in shock, but, I don't care what anyone says about releasing anger being a bad thing.....sometimes it's the only thing that helps.

((((((((((((((Jen))))))))))))))

Yes Jen-- can I join you???

Argggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry you are feeling this way too.

mandy

you didn't hear me about 10 days ago? my animals sure did and probably some neighbors. i understand. pat

[(JD)]

Do you know the song Meatloaf sings: Life is a lemon .. and I want my money back???? sigh.

[Parker10]

Try going outside and singing the song "Good-night Irene" over and over. (Ok - so u are too young to know that one - so how about any silly song u know)......distraction, make yourself laugh out loud at yourself , get it out - but in a bit healthier way ! Its horrible to feel like crap.

[jmo531]

Something has come up that has me very, very worried. I am afraid I may have to stop taking my meds. I am scared all around *sigh*

Life sucks

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((((((Jen)))))))))))))))))))))

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((((jen))))))))))))))))) i do. it's when i'm angry and feel that there's not a dang thing that i can do with it.

hoping you feel better,

(((((((((((Jen))))))))))))))
Let out the roar of the Goddess!

[BlueFaith]

(((((((((Jen))))))))) Thinking of you.

-Jennifer-

[Overcastbutclearing]

YEAH...LIKE NOW............

I F_ _ _ ING HATE THIS WORLD AND LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Myzen]

(((((((((((Jen)))))))))))))

Peaceful thoughts, M

[jmo531]

Thank you.

[(JD)]

grrrrr ...I hope not.

[Estee1]

feel like tearing the wallpaper off the walls. not that i have wallpaper. but sometimes i just feel like running my fingernails down the wall cos i'm in so much agony that i don't know how to let it out. I envy people who can really laugh. i haven't really had a good laugh for soooo long. I envy people who can cry too. I wish there was some way that I could let out what I feel cos keeping it in is agony but i don't know how to let out my feelings. I'm a singer and i always get told that i don't have enough feeling and i try so hard to feel the emotion but I'm so frozen. i feel numb. when I don't feel numb i feel terror, dread, agony or worry. i am a heaps good singer but i can't express emotion so basically I'm not good enough. whenever i have to sing i shake all over and i can hardly hold myself up. i can't breathe and i stand there with no expression. at home i sing beatifully but in front of people i just can't shake this terror. it's awful. i so want to be able to get up and be confident. i started singing ten years ago and I still have major troubles. in my exams i completely lose control and it really affects my performance. it is very disappointing when I have spent months and months practising and i have paid out so much money for lessons. i am disappointed. i want to do lots of cool things but i get so terrified that it messes everything up. i have tried all that positive talking to myself but i just feel like i'm lying to myself. with my mouth i am saying positive things but inside i dont really know. i recently auditioned for the local carols by candlelight and i was shaking so much and i couldn't breathe. i doubt that i will be chosen. when you sing you need to be able to breathe properly but i can't. i completely freak out. what can i do to control this? i'vr tried breathing.

[wi_fighter]

((((((((((((((Jen))))))))))))


I hope today brings better feelings.

[jmo531]

Thanks All. I went to the Doctor today, Just a regular GP. She made me feel a little better but I still am worried. She told me to continue my meds for now and we will get together again in about 3-4 weeks.

Hugs

[Nerak]

((((((((((JMO))))))))))) glad you went to the Doc and it helped.

[Overcastbutclearing]

(((jen)))
Glad you are feeling a little better!

[Gracey]

YES doll!!! I know how you feel.

ONe night in group, (in a christian group for survivors mind you) I asked our leader, "What sort of f*cking sense of humor do you suppose God has!!!!" I was pissed off b/c yet again, it seemed like the Big Guy was sitting by and doing NOTHING while a child was hurt.

Go yell at Him. Tell Him He's all f*cked up. Tell the world.

It'll make you feel better.

(((((((safe hugs ))))))))))

[jmo531]

Thank you all. Today is a bit better then yesterday. I am thankful for that

[Lifelost]

Oooh-yes - I'm familiar with that feeling. I often get to the point where I feel like it is just not worth continuing life. I feel that there is no point to it. After a while I try to turn it around and ask, what is the point of the opposite? Sometimes it's a frustrating as being forced to watch Saturday morning cartoons. I really believe that we need to take control of our lives. It is pretty easy to just let things happen to us. In my life I have experienced that problem a lot. Perhaps we can be happier if we didn't allow others to influence our goals.