[silver_moon]

I'm driving myself nuts through sheer boredom. Through lonliness. I can't do anything or talk to anyone and I feel like screaming, throwing, punching, something, ANYTHING just to get the frustration out AAAARGH!

My head feels like it's screaming.

[Leed]

Hi - Can I ask why you can't talk to anyone?? I know what it's like being alone. I live alone too --- but I talk on the phone to people. I'm disabled so I can't get out alot. Oh, I go to the corner store for stuff, but that's about it. I live in a tiny village so nothing is very far away.

As for "friends" I don't have any. They all dropped me when my husband died. I don't know why -- I guess they don't want a widow hanging around. I've tried calling them, but no one returns my calls. So to heck with them. They are no friends, really. Friends wouldn't act like that.

Why not put a bunch of pillows on your bed, and scream into them - and punch them?? I do that when I'm frustrated. If I just screamed without the pillows, someone would call the cops!! LOL I don't need them coming here.

You can talk here all you want. Feel free to vent! I'll listen - message me. God bless. Hugs, Lee

[Lilleth]

I am afraid to scream as I think if I started I wouldn't be able to stop. I am lonely not good at making conversation. Have few friends my fault really, those around me care about me but don't know how to help me. This site is a god send.

[kalisha36]

I understand that....If I start screaming I may not be able to stop!!!!!!!!!

I have some close friends, however they try to understand, but they can't either...My kids, husband arg.......I so badly try to play along try to "fake" it sigh but like you said having people that "truly" understand for that I am grateful....

Sorry anyone has to feel this pain

Kalisha