[Gilead]

Today is my birthday. It’s a terrible trigger for me. The memories keep coming at me – trying to stay distracted but not having any luck. I’m at work and I need to ride it out even though I’d rather be home alone until it all goes away.

Someone gave me a birthday card earlier – I just barely kept my composure – I feel like such an idiot that something like this can break me so easily. I know they mean well but they just don’t understand how my experiences can be so different from theirs, and I certainly am not about to share any details. I actually work here with someone whose parents finally had to tell her at 12 years old that there is no Santa Claus – they were afraid the other kids would make fun of her. I can’t imagine having had a childhood like that.

I’m posting this because I know a lot of you will understand and that helps.

Thank you for being there…..

[Elana05]

(((Gilead)))
Thinking of you today...

[clouds_and_sun]

Hang in there, I am new here so I am not quite sure what is going on but I wanted to send this to you:

[Gilead]

Thank you Elana and Clouds and Sun. I really appreciate the thoughts not to mention the pictures....

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((Gilead))))

Thank you for posting and I wanted you to know that I can relate to how you feel. I know it may be different for each of us but my birthday is always a very hard time. It triggers so much and is really hard to even be at that time.

I understand how a card can bring so much forth that no one even knows but you do and I validate how you feel. I am sorry that your birthday does that. I hope that you are doing okay and know that you are cared for and heard.

Do know that we are here for you and when and if you are ever able or want to post about you we will listen and support you the best we can. I hope you will do something for yourself today, just posting here was good although I know how hard it must have been.

Know that you are not alone and you are accepted here for you, no judgements, expectations, or conditions. Sometimes just knowing that helps. I am glad that you reached out today and allowed us to listen and reach back. I know that in and of itself can be so hard at times.

I know it is hard but if it is okay I do want to wish you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY. I hope that you will continue to reach out. Know we are here for you. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts today and everyday. Always.

dps

[Gilead]

DPS,

Thank you for the thoughts. I'm glad you understand how that day can just send me reeling.

And thank you for the Happy Birthday.....

[kikki27]

Originally Posted by Gilead

Today is my birthday. It’s a terrible trigger for me. The memories keep coming at me – trying to stay distracted but not having any luck. I’m at work and I need to ride it out even though I’d rather be home alone until it all goes away.

Someone gave me a birthday card earlier – I just barely kept my composure – I feel like such an idiot that something like this can break me so easily. I know they mean well but they just don’t understand how my experiences can be so different from theirs, and I certainly am not about to share any details. I actually work here with someone whose parents finally had to tell her at 12 years old that there is no Santa Claus – they were afraid the other kids would make fun of her. I can’t imagine having had a childhood like that.

I’m posting this because I know a lot of you will understand and that helps.

Thank you for being there…..

Happy belated birthday I hope you get what you wanted on your special day